un-valentine's

For the past few days,i had a dozen and one things to blog about.so watch out for the upcoming next days for the topics. School.Education.Bus passengers.Love.and blah blah.and i gurantee you i won't leave out any juicy info. out.(:<

anyway today was my UN-valentine's day.Maybe it was because i didn't had the person i wanted to share it with.wells.anyway,school was a drag,i don't understand why im wasting my life there.wake me up when i graduate please.
Brought cassie,well it's she who brought me to the jamming studio,was suppose to make her and justin meet and patch up some things,but the whole bloody band was at mac'd performing?huh?like who the hell performs at mac'd lar?C'mon what are you gonna sing? ''ba-da-ba-pa-pa,im loving it.'' -_-" lame.was damn frigging pissssssssssssssssssssst,cause we waited damn long please.So we switched our routes to Orchard,and Cassie wound up saying ''fug you couple!fug you flowers!fug you chocolates!fug you!fug you!fug you'',on the other hand,i said ''screw the world! screw this! screw that!''

And there we were,2 girls with our minds glistening with the past.went over to pacific plaza to pass john his v-day gift.GOSH IT SEEM TO TAKE US 10 YEARS JUST TO DO IT,wait not we,it's ME!hawrs.I was being very negative,complaining who the heck declared valentine's day and to like go screw the person or something like that.Guess i just want someone whom i can call on mine too,but thanks to some random idiot who randomly came into my life and had to kick his own soccer ball right into the nets of my heart giving me a RED CARD in life,that,i'll never forget.

To the HEARTS I'VE ACHED:

as this valentine's comes to an end,i hope y'all are getting along with life breezy.
new love ones, hope you found them.I'm not the one for you.Infact i think all of you are the fine and dandy and decent,but im just not the one.have a very well valentine's day.(:

TO the guy whom i wanna watch the stars with(benson choo,don't lie,i know it's you):

you have to read this.i don't care! FOR the past few days i've noticed,that both the moon and stars have been out.And these were the stars that first shone when our feelings started to blossom,i can still remember .I'd do anything to watch it with you,just like i promised i would.and about those things i said in that letter,maybe i did mean some,and not all.I can't resist you.I don't know how you do,what you do?I'm just so into you i guess,it just keeps getting better THAT time,guess i wanna spend the rest of my days like how they were last year,where it felt that it will never end,forever and ever.(: Every little thing that you do,baby im amazed by you.(: <3

influenza

well well,im back.too all who thought i was dead,which it felt like i was,cause i've been having influenza.i don't think i'll ever trust those docters at Bishan again,they gave me the wrong medicine and my sickness worsen,how apathetic.pieces of shit.I've been suffering for the past few days,but it did give me time to think about alot of stuff.Though now i know that the ghost of the past is still haunting and daunting over me,I'm still scared.Anyway,part of this influenza i need to saty away from people who scream,so people when you want to talk to me,please talk,don't scream yell or holler.i'm not deaf,though my ear drums are already affected,thanks to those a million people out there who scream right into my ear.
>:(

Dear Scene,please let me be death and blind.

im insane

Today,just wasn't my day,or my week.I've been sent out of class how many times a day?!?gosh.and the reasons are STEWpid. anyway,during english when i got sent out of class cause i made a blunder in my work,i played pepsi cola 123 with fifi,joyce,zara,siti,nasreen and priya.it was hilarious.(:

Dance wasn't so bad,i was dead flat tired,and i didn't think i had the energy to do pointe work,but still i did it,and i swear my toes were screaming out in pain,it felt as if blood was oozing out like shit.But still,the pain kept me of my mind from alot of things.Then when my folks picked my up with naomi and the dog,my mum had to discriminate me,it seems whatever i do will never be good enough for her,i don't know how the hell she wants it! and then SHE HAD TO DRAG EVERYTHING FROM THE PAST!and i broke down and cried.I went straight to my room,cried like no one's beeswax dor about and hour and a half.

I don't know what or why im crying about.It seems there's something in the past that harbours and it won't let go.Every single thing that happend back then flashed back through my mind.and yea kyle was in it the most,i realised how a fool i was to cover up for his sin,cover up for his shame,cover up for almost everything thus leaving me to make a gigantic sacrifice.Maybe i am stewpid,or im just outta my mind,im insane.I don't know.
here i go,scream my lungs out.

lollers

i met someonelse.he's a friend.I don't know what the future is,and what we'll be like down the road./:

chinGAY

dHUNG out with Nisha and her sister and my sister at bugis at geeeeee 11 am?!? HAWRS.HAWRS.i had so much fun interacting with those girls.(:
met Evel,watched dick and jane.and i saw TIM HAN AND SIDNEY! yea you must've guess his surprise look on his face when he saw my hairstyle,sidney was calm and cool.TIM didn't even talk to me lar.such and ass.i prolly figured out that he was meeting his girl.well oh well,i lost alot of money today,20 bucks to movie tickets!):
shucks.I don't know what to say.I'm not going for the barcelona's party tonight.sheeesh.
I emailed a friend something nasty.
there's always something in the way,it's not in me,it's not you.

don't bother.

yea i lost everything when you were gone.so now i say,goodbye my friend,goodbye my lover.): Yea the picture is way distorted i know.haaaa wells.((: had dance yesterday,and talked to phanida on the way home.Balraj says my hair looks like the Hiroshima's atomic bomb that landed like a mushroom.SHEEEEESH.anyway,i lost 3 friends.
the starting of their first name is R,K,and B.
To B(the guy who WAS my shooting star i don't know if you still are),i don't know what you want.I really don't,if you want me out of your life,i'd be more than happy to be.
To R,___________ you right back
To K,please grow a brain,better yet a concience,and a life.

new

new skin.i like.i like.((: school starts tomorrow and i can't wait to get back to my books,smell the pop quizes,test and homework,jump and scream from one end to another,cut the qeues from the sec 1's.BUT i've got cca afterthat,geeee that just stinks.anyway
　

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It's hard to say goodbye

so a friend of his told me that he already likes another girl,whatever.i'm not gonna do anything about it.
Of all the things I believe in I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three weeks were just pretend and I say
Goodbye to you Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right
Goodbye to you Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved The one thing that I tried to hold on to
and It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine I want you but I'm not giving in this time
Funny isn't it?why im crying over this situation again,when im suppose to be happy.
Can anyone tell me why we met?Why did tim had to introduce us?Why we fell in love?Why he had to speak those words?Why we had to dance?Why?Just give me the reason.-starts to throw things-

Oh and to the guy who was suppose to meet me on friday to pass me something
You were everything i want
You were everything i need
You were everything inside of me that i wish i could be
You said all the right things at exactly the right time
But you're starting to mean nothing to me
And sometimes i don't know why.
and i was right all along, I know that guy who said those promises is somewhere deep down inside of you,but i can't wait for him.Cause waiting for you is like waiting for rain to fall over a drought.USELESS and DISAPPOINTING.>:(

brighter than sunshine

had performance.i DROPPED my fan.whooops.but i think i did pretty alright.:))
had alot of support and cheering from my beloved class.hahas.raras.oh i just love them,don't cha?
Went towning with Nisha and Jannah,watched cheaper by the dozen 2.hahas.laugh till my pants drop.HAWRS.HAWRS.was suppose to meet benson for a while,but that ass didn't come.so eck it! HUR. :)
OH and something weird happend at heeren's too,shan't say,but your ewpressions will like,'oh er,ogay.'
saw alot of people here and there,and HOLY too! HAWRS.Holy's expression was hilarious,he was like 'OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG! WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOUR HAIR?',hohohoho,and i realise im catching up to his height.WHOOOPEEEDOOO.
walked too p.s from heerens,and i finally bought my new school bag instead of the reef one,hurhurhur.then went to my cousins place for dinner,i must say i took one big round,when i could've just use the short-cute,but nevermind,slow and easy wins the race. :)

Thank God for the weather today,and praise His name for healing me and giving me comfort,im starting to heal fast.I'm so contented.:))

uh-oh.i didn't seem to notice that i haven't blog since sunday.anyway,i'll pen them all down here by their days respectively.

• TODAY

I didn't go to school today,had to attend the cremation of my great grand daddy,I teared when i saw it being burned.It's not only pain but it's just nevermind.I slept for another4 hours in the afternoon,to make up for all the time i didn't sleep.

• WEDNESDAY

school was exhausting for me,so was dance.But guess it goes credit to the performance this friday! :D He messaged me,but it wasn't very nice.guess it was bad news afterall.

• TUESDAY

can't remember what the heck happend.but nevermind,

• MONDAY

jap classes ended at 9.45 as usual.and i think i said to laveena that i miss him.oh wells.

Basically,i was spending most of the time at the wake,and getting to know my other family members better,including the extended side,gosh so many aunties pinching my cheeck like some pastry.but then they kept exagerating that i was er pretty? alright,ogay.well i guess i do look pretty in this hairstyle of mine.i'm just being humble and not ego here.HAHAS.oh wells.getting some theraputic sessions tomorrow with janah and nisha. :)) and so if you see a girl in a naima-hairstyle,and slippers and shorts.scream and be proud to say that you saw erika! :)) HAHAS.

If it's over let it go and,come tomorrow it will seem so yesterday.

im just a bird that's already flown away.

Laugh it off and let it go and,if you wake up it will seem so yesterday.

since you've been gone

Since he's been gone,i can't breathe for the final time,and it's hard to move on,yea yea yea yea,thanks to him,now i don't know what i want,since he's been gone.

Service was awsome today,went for the youth,everyone was surprised with my new look.HAHAS.someone looks like naima now eh?HAWRS.HAWRS.gosh im flattered.Australian lead worship today,i loved their drummer and bassist!damn nice can.Oh and since from the distance of the mrt to the max pavillion is like a walking distance,im bringing my skateboard next time,i can't be bothered to walk no longer.

Then went for my great grand Daddy's wake.sigh.teared abit,was sad.but things just couldn't get any better,when i received an sms from him,and i was drinking this packed drink and it had taufik's face on it!and some idiot had to wear the perfume,and whatsoevermore,i was at clementi,very near to where he stays.grrrrrrrr.I liked today and yesterday's night sky.:))and to the guy whom i know will read this;
whenever i look a the stars,i waste myself in sighs afer night after night,wondering and thinking.yea it's you im thinking of for sure.hur.


does anybody care to go shopping with me this friday?prettty.prettty please?

malaysia,TRULY asia

Yesterday,i went to malaysia with my folks and my mum's friend,then when i stepped into malaysia,i got very mood off.I looked around me,malays,chinese,indians,blah blah,couples,skaters.I got reminded of so many stuff,then we shopped at city square,cause we didn't wanna go any further north.I teared while walking,especially when i shopped at F.O.S. I just wanted to break-down so badly,cause i saw the top that i wore when i first met him,i didn't buy anything in the end.Painful memories,painful obsessions.
It was pretty useless for my body and soul to go malaysia actually,i DIDN'T buy anything at all.pathetic.
but i really got reminded of him,the fragance,some ass had to wear it.The bling bling,some negro wore it.his hat,another malay guy had to wear it.the clothing,someone else also wore it.the sunglasses,it was on a shop stand.the songs that we danced to that nigh,some shop had to play it. RARRS.it hurts.i don't know why,but it just does,all of you may see 'it was so short',but that time meant so much too me,cause i was praying for this day to happen to meet some guy like him.all of you think i'm gonna be fine and alright,like my break-up with sean.BUT you're all asses to think like that.i've never felt so bad and alone this week,it's not my weeek,and prolly my month,since i got news that my great grand daddy passed away this morning.
take me away.please...it's already bad enough.

i wanna shout it out

I hat short puts,i'll run away the next time mr tan ask us to do short puts! half of my right side is totoally limped. >:(
had lunch with christian,AHHH THAT GUY AR,can make me cry i tell y'all!
anyway,i called kyle up yesterday,to interview him for my cme project,it didn't go too well,i broke down half-way,cause it's so damn pain.I cried even harder and louder when we hung up,i had to cause it was the only way to relief it all away,guess for this upcoming valentine's day im totoally alone again.sigh.tsk.oh wells.Oh and during bio,my 'husband' amanda and my 'daughter' rachel yeong,made this -z alphabets of sexual reproduction since we were studying the more detailed parts of it this semester.like ewwww and gross,why did God made guy's reproduction organs even more complicating then girls?too many to memorise lar! >:( HAHAS.

TO KYLE NUR HIDAYAT:
you've become everything i loathe,now everything between us is comprimised
what could have been and what could be is simply gone right before my eyes.
i refuse to belive that but it HIT me hard.
i loved you so much,beyond anyone could imagined but now it's empty everywhere...and i can't fix all those holes.
but i found a drift of words unspoken.maybe i'll scream cause it hurts,your every word cuts me inside.
and now we're saying goodbye.i can't like your character.what you've become..i don't think i can ever change my mindset,it's just too complicating.
your speech and lifestyle is so different from me.it's you i love.how did you ever become like this?
why did you had to guide me along this lie?it's just you...belive me..i just can't comprimise..
im just not your type i suppose.i'll never be.
movin on....im already gone.and i'll be.

the perfect man

Alright,i woke up today with a splitting headache,thanks to Christian for making me run in the rain! RAWRS. >:( anyway,dance was somewhat cancelled,ALLELUIA,i went home to rest.yea right,i wound up using the computer ,watching dvd's after dvd's. Going to this website and that website,giving out testi's and returning answers to emails. what a BORE. read through alote of people's blog,i enjoyed it,caused me to think,hem and hawed,and thanks,cause it always give me inspiration to write.

I'm starting to heal,cause im thinking less of the pain,it's not worth it.and HE'S not worth it,there's someone out there better,but with the whole new look on me,i wonder who will it ever be.
To accept me and love me and unconditional,and see past through the beauty,but find THEE beauty.and so valentine's day is coming,hopefully im not alon,AGAIN.aHAWRS.But yea,anything can happen.Whatever and whoever it is,it is their decision to accept and see things deeper.
I belive im someone special,someone beautiful,someone wonderful,someone powerful and unstoppable,and if people have a problem with that well than that's their problem,cause i don't care. I feel so thankful to be alive.

HAWRS.i don't know why but i've been finding so many things to be thankful about.
Like why God let it rain.Why there was a pop quiz.Why the teacher had to scare me from my sleep.Why i had decided to borrow the book 'the joy luck club'.and yaddity yaddity yea. I don't know but life seems so light and flawless that way,instead of negativity which i see and get and have everyday,there's no room for sadness when im being so thankful!ignore me,im in one of my ra-ra moods.
alright people.thanks for reading. :))

always there in you

school starts normal on monday,i think.-scratches head-
anyway,i guess it's over this time round.never thought i would be the one to fall down so hard.like what venelyn said,and i AGREE!we're like in the same situation.

'my lips tremble as i clicked on 'delete photo'
cause i know you wanna be outta my life forever,
tears roll down my cheeks, you'll never be mine again.

my friends keep telling me,
that if you really love him,
you gotta set him free,and if he returns in time,
i know he's mine.

you'll never turn back,so all i can do is hope and pray,cos heaven knows'

met up with christian over subway and starbucks,talked about my shit to him,apparently he KNOWS him.and he thinks that guy is sucha dickhead.i don't see why.yeas.and we got soaked in the rain,and we were like playing like some herbal essence's shampoo lady advertisement.by the time we board the bus,it STOPPED raining.gee thanks.
but once in a while,i liked the rain,it gave me a reason to let all the misery be washed and be SICK.there's no difference between teardrops and the rain. :))

haunt me down

I fought with a friend,and i don't feel bad about it.HAWRS.how cruel.but i guess i had to let go of him,he wanted us to be more than just friends,and everyone knows that i can't accept that.To give up happiness to spend a few months with misery,is not in my defination.
But on the other hand,there's another guy too i have to confess.somewhat who made it all worthwhile yet fuming for me.Is it gonna be worth the 3 years wait i ask?But what now,after meeting up with me last thursday,you seem to be more distant than ever. It hurts and it's confusing,i'm still and i've been back to this threaded line,where i know it'll fall apart any moment.
Though life has return back to normal for me,my confidence level has brought me to a newer level,and the same routine has returned,blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah.Something is huanting me.
gotta scoot now,dad yelling.

cca fair

cca fair was a drag.none of the performing arts put on any make up,and it was HOT!
I was like the only ballet dancer in a MOWHAWK hairdo. :)) yeas,i like to stand out.
but glad it was over,i was up on stage for like a minute,or prolly less then that,after that Phanida accompanied me to coronation to buy my top up card.yeas i have a new number people.walked and talked to her guy on the phone,OH OH OH and then we indulged oursleves onto a mudpie cake.yumsyums.at island creamery.yuums then i was hungry again and i ate a cheese-burger,headed back to school to help out somemore.(yea so much for helping)HAWRS.but it was boring as ever.-yawns-
i'm pretty sick and tired of doing this stuff,it gets no where and it's tiring.what i'm trying to say is,it's an absolute bore and plus,you do nothing. Sure dance can be a joy,but from my view, people join certain cca's just to gain that popularity of seniors and juniors,please,it gets you no where, and you don't gain anything,join a cca that helps develop your interest.i'm not cynic here,it's from experience.

bung

For a thousand time,get this straight into the brain of yours,I AM NOT BUNG! HELL NO! EEEEYUCK. :(
had dance.im still feeling miserable.i've never felt this badly miserable before. Meeting cheryl tomorrow to catch up on things. :))

If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you.

Life in school as usual seems to cause even more misery.Nothing seems to end.ahh wells,im just rambling a whole lot of shit stuff here.i'll go now.




Hear me,im crying out.Someone,i mean anyone,ease it for me,please?

there's always.

There's always something in the way,and it's NOT me,it's you. The most beautiful letdown i ever had.
This week has been hell for me,and those of you who know what happend to me,well very few does,know how hard it was for me to stand up on my own this time round. The Lord's plan?maybe it was. I'm still learning,I'm still crawling,I'm still learning how to breathe. I don't even know where to begin to start to tell all of you my story,cause it's simply just too long. But nonetheless,i've learnt alot.
1. Choose your friends wisely,and i mean it.
2. You have freewill,and don't be scared to use it.
3. You're given choices,make them wisely.
4. When in love and you're out of it,it's not really the end,it's just the beginning.

Tears form inside my eyes,and i try not to cry.
counting days passing me by.
I've searched deep down in my soul,
words that i'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like im starting all over again
Those last 2 weeks were just pretend.

why?

Guess this past few days were a scrape.i've been trying to stay happy and calm and AWAKE! but something happend,something that has driven me into a crash world.
i have a beautiful letdown,and im beautifully broken.i can't seem to keep things i never had,face it,im doom for eternal suffering but i'll be happy about it. happiness seems to have an irrational dislike for me,don't know why. WHY?WHY?WHY? To have and to hold,to love and to cherish is what i asked for,and i got exactly what i got,im holding on,cause i don't wish to let go of seomthing so beautiful that has been formed for only 2 weeks? wow,a shortest relationship,i fell in love too easily,now i'm stumbling back onto my own. I cried on my way home,i knelt down and cried as the rain washed away my misery,it was such a good sensation,and i'll do it again.

beautifully broken

it was such a long night.firstly,a HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE. :))
Yesterday transformed and greeted me with a whole new level of faith. Thanks to all like cheryl,keisha,charrisa and the whole dance team. I feel so blessed and so loved,mostly because the Lord really did rock the house and touched us one way or another,i received comfort and security and i found Him,great way to start the new year.:))

The night cum day it happend between 31st december and 1st july,was a terror for me. I was fighting my soul,my body my heart away. The 'monster' came into my room,i couldn't hold on any longer,but i still tried. I still lost,i still cried. Running here and there,closing my eyes and ears,confusion and utter pain filled ever void in my room,still i knelt down and prayed and cried out this time. But a blow on my cheek,interrupted my prayers.

I watched you die I heard you cry Every night in your sleep.
I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me.
You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain.
And now I cry In the middle of the night Over the same damn thing.
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt.
Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in.
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty Because of you I am afraid
Because of you

best day=worst day

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yeas the photos are up,my printer is working once again.im happy. so go check it out :D
wheeees.
I'M PROUD TO SAY THAT I'VE LOST WEIGHT,THANKS TO DANCE,HAD PRACTICE EVERYDAY! :D OH the wonders.
yesterday,was one of my worst nights.it couldn't have gone any worse.
First it was my mum,then kyle. But kyle made it better,and i won't ever mention the 'D' word again.but it hurts.but it's worth it. i love kyle. :D
Oh and today,dance sucked like anything. I forgot most of my steps,had to practice again and again. Guess this is what happends when you have to memorise more than 10 songs worth of dance. I even screamed out the equation of anaerobic respiration while practising.HOW APT! HAWRS.
kyle is coming down now.laters.

what can i say? Many of you out there who know me,would know me as a person who loves to take big risks and chances no matter what the outcome is. But waiting for a your bf to come back from australia for 3 years,i ask isit worth it? I've been asking myself that.It's simply far too long i can't deny. I admire celeste's spirit,but i can't think of the fact that he'll be gone.The guy whom took all sadness and misery after a temporary prince left.my love,my only one,my baby kyle.
I tear each night,cause the only thing i have left is FAITH.

i finally wanna dance

i've been dancing for three days straight.and the sad news is i'll be dancing for the whole week! :(
everypart of me aches.today's dance from 2-6,met up with keisha and cheryl over at woodlands cc.and oh,i overslept for my cca,i woke up at 11.30 and dance was gonna end at 12.But i overslept for a good cause hogay! i was finishing up my english homework,well sorta trying to finish,only managed to find 16 phrases,and i need 300 hundred phrases. HAWRS,by grace, I pray i'll have the speed and energy. :D

if you're ready to be my everything,
if you're ready to see it through this time
and if you're ready for love then
this i will bring
But im not gonna wait forever this time.

YEAAAAAAAAAAA

YOWZA!
went shopping with my folks,bought this new skirt and wedges. :D
i went home,and i helped my folks for the party,with this and that.and i think i did more than 50 plies.cause i was like bending so much. HAWRS.anyway,got showered and dressed for the party.

met up with mark first,ate at waffeltown,and we talked and talked,and joked around.he ate the saturday meal,i had a chocolate milkshake.then we went to the party.saw a few people that i knew.saw kyle and ridhuan.mmmmhmmms.the dance floor was preety small,but it was good,the music totoally got me grooving.drank abit of corona.

what can i say?it was hard to dance in a long skirt,damn should've woren jeans.>:(
got grinded and grinded by a few guys.some of them were pretty good dancers.-hintshints-
there was this particular guy,mervyn or melvin i think from st pat's.was like trying to go all over me according to a source.but nonetheless,he grabbed me away.oh wells.i seriously think this was the best party i ever been to so far.the ones at cheenablack,was like so so so ogay.some which were boring.HAWRS.can't wait for the next party that's like this.YOWZA.

THANKS TIMOTHY HAN! FOR EVERYTHING!CALL ME FOR THE NEXT BIG PARTY! LOVED IT.OH AND ERM,THANKS FOR INTRODUCING HIM TO ME. :))

merry christmas

Firstly i wanna wish everyone a blessed Christmas this season,and if you're happy that you got what you want for Christmas,i'm happy for you. But if you didn't get what you wanted for Christmas,well im sorry to hear that.

Above all this festive joy,yesterday i was thinking and numbering the many people that i knew who were upset,it seems i gave up counting cause i lost track and there were simply too many,not too mention i was one of the very few.
I felt even more depressed as one by one everyone tells me why the sadness. No one can seem to take away the misery from their eyes,brokeness from their hearts,shatterdness from the soul. But i pray that you may find hope,and clinge on to faith,afterall, even on Christmas,anything can happen. :D

Mark FOO came over to my place yesterday,for my mum's christmas party,glad he did,and a first time i ever spent Christmas eve with an ex-crush.HAWRS.we got dirty,and i meant cleaning up after the kids,cause powder was on the floor like everywhere! Nearly died,cause there was lack of oxygen. Chill around,mingled. snuggling up on the couch drinking,PEPSI? watching t.v. a christmas carol,and mr bean. HAWRS.then he left at 2.15.

And so this morning,when i got out of bed,i received messaged receiving wishes and blessings,(THANKS TO YOU PEEPS! AND BLESS YOU ALL!). But when i searched under my christmas tree,i couldn't find my presents at all! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
but on the other hand,i didn't get what i want for christmas,neither can no one can give me what i yearn for christmas. Like what i always say to all my friends,if there's a chance,seize it.don't let it pass you by.

OH,and TOO THAT GUY WHOM USED TO READ MY BLOG,(don't know and don't care if he still is):
oh yea so much for everything,thought you were suppose to give me what i want for christmas,bullshit. Save it,i don't want it especially from you,cause if i'll take it,i'll just feel sick inside. I don't mean anything to you,i finally realise and i finally woken up. I am such an idiot,can't belive i actually wasted my time on the stuff we did. When actually there was someone out there waiting for me all awhile,but i gave it a miss. PFFFFFFT! Sure we can still be friends,like you always said,but it seems i'll never be good enough even to be your friend. BUT,even when you still need a friend,i'll still be here,i've always been.Yea i really do feel sorry for you,i've given up waiting,cause it finally rain on the other side,and im gonna go there,ALONE.My blessings to you and the next hot girl you found.

To anonymous:
alright yeas so it's called lifting,not much of a ripp off,go check YOUR dicitionary before you spam please.and even so. SO WHAT? does it have any effects to you? NO RIGHT?and if you're here to give any prep talks about orginality,save it.
I HAVE originality,and please,don't mix hollywood with reality.I'm not trying to be mean but really,so what?
oh and merry christmas and a blissful new year to you.

aiii

baked cookies,yes my marshmellow chocolate chip cookies.the ones that most of the people i know are die hard fans too.wrapped them and went too orchard,was santa claus for an hour. passed it too cheryl PHUA,amanda BAY, shafiqah,cherry, mark,ali, sher,jerome mak,adam and tim. I was suppose to have more,but too bad none were in orchard.don't worry lar peeps,there's more at home! :D

adam was kind,he followed me to orchard mrt,and he was perspiring buckets and buckets.gave him a hug,didn't mind.
Then Sher messaged me,a shocking question,sure it's what i want for christmas,but among all the guys why him lar? I'm seeking for what is right.someone who understands me,someone who knows that there's no such thing as waiting only paitience,someone who won't betray,someone who knows that history IS already history. Someone who know that promises are not meant to be broken. Just that special someone,is out there.

COME LAR

TO : ALL MY FRIENDS.
HEY Y'ALL THERE'S A PARATYE COMING THIS MONDAY.PLEASE TEXT ME ABOUT IT.I NEED 4 PEOPLE.AND THAT'S IT.

I've been recovering from my mental breakdown,with the help of alot of people.EEEEYAAS! :D
What can i say? It wasn't worth it all aint it? Glad,friends took me by the hand and showered me with the abundant love and care thay i needed.I LOVE YOU! It's another beautiful mistake.
'That's alright,that's ogay,you never loved me anyway,and i think it's time for you to just move on.
That's alright,that's ogay,i bet you thought you never heard me say,that i think it's time for you to find another dumb blond,cause it's not me no no no.'

christmas is coming in 2 days.and i still haven't got i wanted.maybe i don't want anything this year,what's the use and what the heck.some of you may already know what i want for christmas and you know that it is impossible to give me what i want.it's alright,nice trying and nice shots you gave there. Thanks for all the care,concern,tissues and love you people gave me still. HAWR.

and who again?who's that guy?oh i don't know him. I don't remember him being in my past or present.

oh and i took back what i said about flirting,maybe some parts of it are true.

if you're happy and you know it

TO YOU: (the guy whom i know who has READ this)

what can i say?when i woke up today,i felt guilty and i was mad at myself for saying those horrid stuff on yesterday's post,after i read your blog.And i want to let you know this,NO you're NOT sending the wrong signals to me,i was being stubborn NOT to accept it. Oh and if you think you're better out of my life,you're wrong and crazy about that. Without you there's not a bit of that joy to make me smile and think.
Please don't think that you negelected me for things that were unimportant and insignificent, you should be able to breathe in this frienship. You need the space.and plus,rugby is your life ain't it? and I chooose to be forever more,your princess of erm,erm,erm, of erm.shooooot. erm my estate lar.HUR.
You're the best that ever has happend to me,and for that i'm thankful and grateful.
I knew i hurt you one way or another,and i didn't mean too.
I was just angry at myself. and about that christmas present,well it's up to you wether you still wanna give it to me,please don't say 'i don't know' or 'up to you' or 'whatever makes you happy'. I want a confirmation. :)
you look so exquisite when you smile.wait,you are exquisite yourself. :D


woke up to buy school books and help around in the schoolbookshop to kill time.Then mum picked me up for lunch,where we ate at japanese association,and wth,i was in slippers and shorts.well done erika.and she made me pay for lunch. :( HAHAS.went home and changed,and i fell in love with the top that i was wearing,it matches every piece of bottom! met tim,royy and alex.i hate royy,he bullies me MORE then tim does.ARSSSHOOOOOLE!


Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My prince
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you

to tim han

TO YOU : (the guy that always read this)

I don't know what to say,and i thought you were someone whom i can count on,someone i can really call my close friend,and all the promises you made it's all some phoney to me in the end. You're so unpredictable.
I waited for a call or an sms from you,cause i was waiting at the poolside crying.but you didn't come.
Just go alright, go on and get outta my head,i'm living on the wrong side of a parallel universe. I'm just stomping in the dark,living in a crash world.

You turn out to be exactly who i thought you were. I never pretended to be someonelse,it's been me all along,and it was even me who got hurt infront of everybody.Look,i'm not writing all of this to discriminate you or whatsoever. I just wanna say that i know how it feels to be afraid to show who you are. I was,but im not anymore,and the thing is i really don't care about what people think or do or say about me,because i belive in myself,and i know that things are gonna be ogay.So what if life will have the upright downs in life that will eventually bring me down? In the end,it's you i feel sorry for.

I know that guy who said those promises is somewhere deep down inside of you,but i can't wait for him.Cause waiting for you is like waiting for rain to fall over a drought.USELESS and DISAPPOINTING.

To accept the 'gift' from you is like accepting an unwanted and unexpected rain, all of a sudden it spoils your whole activity. I wouldn't wanna accept unless you really mean it deep down in your heart. Yeas i agreee im one of those million girls in the world,who will wish that you were her guy. Whatsoevermore or are you playing the hardball? Maybe i'll accept it that i'll never be good enough for you.

HAWR

HAWR.that's my title on my post.don't know why,but i decided to call it HAWR.
yesterday we celebrated Samantha's birthday.HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D
then i took a long journey here and there,doing my errands.was suppose to meet TIMOTHY from SJI but that lil turd was hopping here and there,so i told him to go hop away.rented 3 dvds.ate pizza.and well yea lar.fought with my sis and mom,and practically everyone in the family.i didn't had a good night that night.especially since cassie was on the other line,holding on to the brink of tears,cause of relationship problems. STAND UP LIL GIRL,A BROKEN HEART CAN'T BE THAT BAD. :))

alright.having dance later and japanese tuition.SHIT I HAVEN'T DO THE HOMEWORK YET.SCREW ME LAR.

alright.im pooooooped,finished danced then accompanied nisha and pei zhen to centrepoint,after that met santos and a big whole group of his friends who were playing dota at cyberdome.i liked our lil chat together,he made me smile he made me laugh,laugh too hard:D thanks for hearing me and hearing you in return.anyway me and my beautiful bunch of friends will be performing tomorrow
at paragon.at 8pm. please support the strait times school pocket moeny fund.
i don't mind anyone coming down,but please do not make fun,or else i'll personally murder you myslelf.-STARES AT XIAN YI-





GO!JUST GET THE HELL OUTTA HERE! AND LET HER FLIRT WITH YOU FOR ALL I CARE.EFFING BIATCH!

if you were mine

woke up late.HE came early,so i was left with 5 minutes to get ready,jumped outta bed.almost twisted my ankle. Watched alot like love,harry potter 3. And then he slept for and hour and a half,while i used the computer and watched a walk to remember. Ate alot of chocolate. Fooled and played around. Though there were moments when i was given the chance to stare deep inside his eyes,i got lost. I couldn't find my way out. He left shortly,leaving me to devour on the rest of the chocolates. Why is it,that something so beautiful can feel so bad? Why can't i get a grip of myself about this?

venelyn.my confident during this time.you'll always be.:D
she gave me a sense of hope and how i wish it was true enough. This feeling i never felt in th past years of my life. I feel beauty,wonder,joy,love,misery. I can't see it,but i do feel it.-falls onto knees and pray-

going for a christmas partaye now.chiao.

when i look at the stars

i'm back from malaysia,i prettaye much cut short it,and so im the only family member back.STEWpid of me right.yeas i know,so don't come telling me the obvious.but i'm glad i didn't waste a mins. on boring stuff. last night,i sneaked outta the hotel room and went to the poolside with my telescope. It was the most beautiful night ever,i was at Austin hills,in what it may seem i was standing on a hill lar.
It's just too beautiful,so many stars. I wondered how many galactical lights were there. I found peace there,away from the 'war' going on back home. I didn't wanna leave,not never,but 'fraid i had too.what could've been more beautiful then these? The stars up there smiling over me.:D

visited ven's blog,and i got reminded of someone once i heard the song,

far past these roads there is a place
where all our precious dreams remain
someday i know i'll find a way
to keep myself from holding on
stay awake with the sound of my voice
i'm restless from the silence in the air.

i want to be somewhere i can see the roads
a place where every time you can breathe a wish comes true
i want to be where love is real
and memories of distant days come to life again.

inside this room time will stand still
as long as i'm not aware of change
the world outside leaves me behind by myself
it shows no mercy for those who hold on
stay awake with the sound of my voice
i'm restless for the silence in the air.

(bold chorus again)

just came back from far-east,in shorts and slippers?RIGHT! went to balmoral,to collect my bible and my money,and it seems to get somewhere today took forever,waiting for the bus took me 30 mins.and i waited for 2 buses.nevertheless,i shall never use a cab,unless i'm urgent or late.talked for a while and then scoot off to far east to buy my subway,and again,i swear i had to wait for 6 red-light.STEWpid traffic jam.

was suppose to meet justin cause he was suppose to be my listening ear for the night BUT i went home,mum was hollering at me over the phone like no one's business,and i stood,standing like and idiot,taking all the criticism again,i can't stand hyporcrites.it SUCKS.thought about something and someone.i want to smash ice-cream at my face.don't come telling me why,but i just do.i'm counting till the days of christmas.there's no magic,so i decided, why bother oh and about the song,RUNNING AFTER YOU,by planetshakers on my blog.please don't come complaining too me to change it,keep your filthy complaints to yourself and the world will be a better place.but then,when i was running for a bus,i suddenly sang this song.so that's the reason why i wanted to play.so HALLELUJAH,i love the Lord.anyone has a problem?

leaving

do you hate it when you are involved in a three-some?making you the 3rd partaye for God knows the reason?well i have.i don't know what i do to deserve this.im labelled the bad girl now.what do you want me to do?
leave him alone?don't sms?don't call?don't speak?cut all connections with him?what?if it makes you happy,then ogay.
-pauses for a long time-
-screams-
I HATE THIS TINY PLANET! >: (

i couldn't sleep last night,i spent how many hours doing my maths homework? 12-4.hahas well done erika.and then i went down,to cry again.dryed my tears,slept under the stars,it was beauttiful AND OH AND OH AND OH! I SWEAR I SAW SOMETHING SHOOT OUTTA THE SKY! :D made a wish.i know it won't come true,would it?

i abhore it.take me as a sacrifice so you can never see me again.everything of you is like the thorns of a rose bush peircing horizontally/vertically straight into my heart.what else can i say?im just a shadow amongst the thorns of a flower.

if it's alright

I should've known
Day we met
The way you turned and waved at me I never will forget
Two days later who'd of guessed
That we would make it this far just to put it all to rest

And if it's alright I'll stay until it's late untill
You tell that its time that we moved on
And if it takes all night I'll wait here till the
Daylight so that I can see that we just don't belong
Its alright we were wrong

If you're crazy then I'm insane
Two people with the same condition
It never goes away
It's not our problem anymore
But let's just call it even when I'm walking out that door
And oh it won't be easy cause it was hard from the start

And if it's alright I'll stay until it's late until
You tell that its time that we moved on
And if it takes all night I'll wait here till the
Daylight so that I can see that we just don't belong
Its alright we were wrong

Rest of me for some reason it's in the sky so think I'm up high
Must have lived for some reason wasn't a lie just wasn't right
Just wasn't right

And if it's alright I'll stay until it's late until
You tell that its time that we moved on
And if it takes all night I'll wait here till the
Daylight so that I can see that we just don't belong
And if it's alright I'll stay until it's late until
You tell that its time that we moved on
And if it takes all night I'll wait here till the
Daylight so that I can see that we just don't belong
Its alright we were wrong
It's alright we were wrong
It's alright we were wrong
Ohhh It's alright we were wrong
I should've known
Day we met

all you wanted

if you want to,
i can save you,
i can take you away from here,
so lonely inside,
so busy out there,
and all you wanted was somebody who cares

prince came over to dry up my tears,though knowing very well he was one of the reasons.but he was brave enough to embrace the fact.so he might be like out of my life in a way,but his presence,his love,his care and utmost concern,is like the wind,i can't see it but i defitnetly can feel it.but there's one thing im really scared to do now,im so scared to death,im just so so so petrified about it.

met up with nisha,and i had a goood chat with her.thanks arr,i'll pay you back all the 10 cents i owed you in years once someone pays me back.ah ems.you know who.hahas.eck about that person lar,long gone,i don't remember the word 'we' existed in life.:) you're the best.

ohs and im proud to say that i finished my bio and chem worksheets.HUR!and 1/2 of maths.yeas.oh wells.stll gotta study for the test.-sulks- i hate it.rawrs.:(

prince came over to pick up his ez-link.which he left behind.tsk.tsk.walked him home.then went off by myself.got lost halfway,never use shortcuts.long cuts are better.and do not ask anyone in that neighbourhood for directions.sickening asses.got lost for 20 minutes.

had prata.yums.thanks arr prince.too ADUM,sorraye for stealing your gay partner away.:D

ogay.

yesterday,someone asked me what love really was?it was my pal from japanese class,which seems im the only youngest there.i stared at him,and paused for a second,and everything came back too me. you know that feeling and everything seems to freeze for a second.
well i looked him in the eye,and told him what love really was,and it seemed i was reciting the verse of 1 Chorinthians 13.which i posted below,and he turned and said thanks,it's been sometime since my girl said that to me.i wanted to crouch.

the prince picked me up and his loyal servant with us,adam.hit him for me thanks.stayed up at my poolside to find some stars and look at the moon,i need a new telescope.the moment between me and mother nature was splendid,the wind made me knew something,love.you can't see it,but you can feel it.and then she gave me a moment to cry.yes to cry,finally for 5 months,it seemed hard to cry in the first place.but she showed me how to cry.i was scared at the same time,i didn't knew what to do,so i just cried.how could something so beautiful,could ever make me cry?how could something so beautiful could make me stand on the threaded line?

going out with the prince for a movie at night,and i pray for myself to stand and walk strong,and to witness a miracle and to stay with my only hope.that's all i ask for.

ah im not going out anymore.mum doesn't allow.-mummbles-i saw a rainbow,2.it was beautiful,i mean im not trying to exagerate but the minute i saw it,i smiled and i was so exicted.but the minute i rung up prince and turn back to the sky,it disappeared and so did the sun and the rest of the beauty.i want someone next to me tonight by the poolside at 9+.anyone i don't care,i guess i could really use a hug and a shoulder to cry on,now.

love is

Love is always patient,love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not selfish, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
love is not happy with evil but is happy with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

numb again

im awake,to find the sun rays resting on my face.my eyes were facing singapore.i didn't wanna get out,i just wanna stayed in bed.
so maybe,you can't give me my christmas present.but there's something else i want,maybe just one last thing.and than that's it,i won't ask anymore.it was hard for you to put it into words of what you wanted to say to me right? go play 98degrees-the hardest thing,or better yet to save your energy and bytes just go check the lyrics.it's alright and it's ogay.:/

don't ask much

i slept during service just now.yawns.luckily cherish woke me up.thanks ar! service for youth will be on sunday afternoon 1.30 to 3.can't remember what time we finished.it's at hall 9.took the mrt to bishan to meet 2 people.and well.yea.i was happy.(: i really was,finally happy,for the very first time in about 5 months.i'm beginning to smile at everything,singing in the shower and all.but i guess
you're still deciding.somewhat caught in the middle.you don't have to be you know.what is there to think about?why are you so scared about someone who really wants to be with you?i know you're scared.but i know why you're scared,cause you wanna be with me too.i don't wanna be the girl who needs you,i wanna be the girl who wants you.i want you to take A RISK.take A CHANCE.be DARED TO MOVE.love is a leap of faith.are you willing to take my hand?so i can show you things you never seen?hear things you never heard?feel things you never felt?deeep inside you're so lonely,but out there you're so busy,i'll take all of that away.i wanna go up to you,watch you sleep and then finally whisper in your ear te quero.te quero.it's gonna be love.it's gonna be great.it's gonna be more than i can take it.it's gonna be free.it's gonna be real.it's gonna change everything i feel.it's gonna be sad.it's gonna be so true.it's gonna be sooner if you let 2 hearts beat together,the sooner you'll know that love is forever.love needs time now or never.it's gonna be tough but it's gonna be strong enough.
kiss me and smile for me.hold me.

something i never had.

just woke up.i'm not tired still.was talking through the night till both of us wanted to sleep.going for service soon.and yeas it has changed to expo on sundays clashing with the other services by city harvest,and new creation.tsk,tsk.looks like there'll be fights over carparks.tsk tsk.

wish that i could read your mind.
understand what you're hiding in your heart.
then maybe baby,i could help you see,how loved you are.
wish that i could find the words,
that would echo inside of your soul.
cause then you'll know,i love you so.




what can i do to make you love me?
what can i do to make you care?
what can i say to make you feel this?
what can i do to get you there?

i hate to go

i was awaken by smses at 2.30 in the morning,3 from tim han and 1 from ROYY TONG.and so i replied the following morning,started screaming on the sms to royy tong for fooling around. rawrs.(im gonna kill you!)

got dressed,went to the westin hotel,(i still like to call it westin) to drop off my folks and sis.since it was my mum's birthday tomorrow.went in and outta the hotel lobby at least a dozen times to do errands for my parents.and alas,i was finally seated in the hotel-room.frozed to death,sniffles and atchooos.): called tim,was suppose to hang out with him.so i went down to cuppage.then walked to p.s to enjoy starbucks and conversations and read someone's diary!i've yet to read the last page,it just left me wondering.made 3 new friends.aileen.jeric.santos.(:
all of us parted and me and tim went to enjoy supper at the prata shop at thomson road.yea and so much for enjoying,the people took their own sweet daisy time to get our orders.oh wells.enjoyed it anyway.till the end,i wonder if i should erase the video at the bustop in my head.it's playing over and over again.stupid?insane?crazaye?nuts?juvenile?dumb?i guess i was.and again it left me wondering.

it's my infatuation.can't resist it.finally for the first time in this situation.im really nervous.

oh btw,i've got a story to tell.to all crushes and crushees.love lorn and lorn love (ECK!).i don't know if it'll make you laugh or cry.but i know it did.so don't say i didn't warn you.
ah em.

Here's a story of a girl,leaving in the pathetic and lonely world.
She keeps a hidden note that is for her secret crush.
and this boy just talks too much.
Well,im standing in a crowd,and when he smiles,i try to check him out,but i wonder if he even knows the meaning of my name,but he's too busy playing games.
And i want him to know,that if he loose his way,i won't even think about letting him go.
If i cut my hair,if i change my clothes,would you notice me?
if i bite my lips,if i SHOUT HELLO! would you notice me?
what's it gonna take for you to see,i just want you to notice me.
You have your head up in the clouds, tell me when you're coming down.(hope a wishing star hits you!)
i don't wanna sink your ship,it's not about that scolarship.
and the friends that follow you,telling you certain things that might not always be true.
im the girl you never really did see.
i just wanna be the girl that you want,and not only need.
so don't you get me wrong,just make your move,before the moment's gone.
i'm not like the rest,i don't give a damn if you're the best.
you see it's all the same to me.you just be who you want to be.
so don't get me wrong,just make your move,before the moment is gone.
so please tell me,will you ever really notice me?

woke up early,cause some idiot's sms woke me up,tim han! MERHUR.oh wells.met him at the bus-stop.he was on the phone.pffft.but so was i.double pffft.
went to his gran-folks place to pick up his cousin jason,sucha dude.then waited for sidney and samantha his sister,watched chicken little.it was childish but it's helluva cute! ((:
tim was sleeping,caught him sleeping thrice,ass wasted his money to watch a movie only to end up sleeping in the cinema.then jason and samantha parted walked to far-east with sidney and him.talked and talked and talked and talked and talked.till sid left.
then i decided to be 'nice' to go all the way to the mama shop to buy brands for his gramps.hey,that rhymes! :D
poor dude,tired and all.he's a nice guy.mean but nice.he looks ABIT like his sis,she's prettaye f.y.i. mmmhmmm.
-giggles-

Skin the color of cinnamon
His eyes light up and I melt within
Feels so good it must be a sin
I can't stop what I started
I'm giving in
He brings life to my fantasies
Sparks a passion inside of me
Finds the words when I can not speak
In the silence, his heartbeat is music to me

I am NOT full blooded chinese
Reads the words on his lips
He tells me, ahhhhh aiiii when he takes a puff
And my heartbeat pumps so strong
Getting lost in orchard road
He whispers te quiero, te quiero
I begin to give in with no hesitation
Can't help my infatuation
It's pure infatuation

im all alone

yawns.morning to all.(scratches head)
well well well,i couldn't sleep last night,God knows the reason why,i spent the whole night looking at the rain and lightnings just to pass time.till it hit me hard.

it's no fun sitting at home,cause there's no one to talk to,mess around with,hit,punch,arm wrestle,snuggling up on the couch.
mimicking the people on msn or friendster.
no one to have lunch with,shop around,laze around,movie with around.
no one to sit under the stars at the poolside and talk about nothing in significance.it's so boring.sure i've got friends.im thankful and grateful for that,but i miss that someone next to me,where he would hug me tight and whisper sweet nothings in my ear.someone to come up from behind give me a big surprise by planting a sweet kiss on my cheek.ha what a lonely christmas not too mention boring one.

going to meet up daryl WEE to catch up on everyone at my ol primary school,kcpps.eating lunch at j8.yumsyums.((:

alright im back,after doing my errands,met up with timothy han.ultimate slackers lar we.walking up and down,building to building.bumping into this person that person.HAHAS.had fun though he made me carry the plain busicuits!rarrs.then he was nice enough to drop me of at city hall.HA thanks.:D

he's nice lar.tried to talk him out of some stuff.and gawd,STUBBORN MULE! or prolly worse than that lar.but he was different than i thought he would be.he's different,he's maybe catergorised under not your average acs b boy? HAHAS.watching chicken lil with his cousins and my sister tomorrow.nights.

i'll take you to MY shangri la

so i just came back from thailand.i forgotten what to blog about,despite making a list! HAHAS,useless piece of shit. i had fun in thailand,thouogh i gotta admit,it is my first time going there.i had fun.i had dreams of alot of people,freaky but i hope it's not true.((:

saw RACHELKOHSIYI ND ADELINEQUEK at a shopping mall in siam,mbk was it?yeas,i was like wth.HAHAS.missed my friends.muasmuas.-throws flowers-

bought an addidas jacket,addidas hot shorts,roxy hot shorts and 2 tops from the night market.OMG LAR,despite the wide variety of the branded stuff the price is like 2 1/2 times of singapore.oh wells.i grew fat and i know so.so don't come telling me the obvious people.and damn my mp3 failed me.)): rawrs.

i pretty much couldn't shop much since we had to meet my mum's friends.and it's prettaye awkward how each and every trip to a foreign country,we go to church.
very holy of me eh?!? HAHAHAHAS.foood was fabulous.can't say much,had some LALA'S with my mum my dad and my sis.anyway hoped you guys missed me.((:

back

im back from the building next to forum.
went out with zachery TAN and his friends one of which were vernon,and this guy also working at far-east 'reign',three girls.forgotten their names.:D
was rather queit though as i was really shy,unusual of me to be shy today,maybe cause they were like older then me,all 17-18.
watched them play pool,almost dozed of seating,like i was bored lar!
terence messaged me,STEWpid DICK HEAD.then
jonathan YIP messaged me.HAHAS.
folks came to pick me up,stared at my room,stared at my suitcase,stare at my colset,stared at my desk.
i have not pack,and i have randomly did my homework.hurhurhurhurhurhurhurhur.leaving for thailand tomorrow,won't be back till tuesday though.
gotta scooot,take care y'all.till then God bless! ((:

outaa

my new skin.not done though.alright im gonna go out with zachery TAY now.will be back to blog somemore.
don't miss me.((: