Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Monday, October 26, 2009

this is why

This is why I found myself in love and staying in love. (:

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

you'll always be my thunder

"Your voice was the soundtrack of my

Boys like Girls-Thunder

Sunday, October 18, 2009


I probably shouldn't say this But at times I get
so scared

When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome, but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you

My dear

The seven things I hate about you
The seven things I hate about you
Oh, you
You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry, I don't know
which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks, when you act like
them, just know it hurts

I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you

You make me love you

It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it I'll believe

If you text it I'll delete

Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not comin back
You're taking seven steps

The seven things I hate about you
You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry, I don't know
which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks, when you act like
them, just know it hurts

I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you

You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The seven that I like

The seven things I like about you
Your hair,
Your eyes,
Your old

When we kiss, I'm hypnotized
You made me laugh, you made me cry, but I guess
that's both I'll have to buy

Your hand in mine when we're intertwined,
everything's alright

I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I like the most that you

You make me love you

-Miley Cyrus aka Hannah Montana

Friday, October 16, 2009

Thank you but this is for all guys with dicks,

No woman, no cry the say. To all guys with dicks.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

i can just die now




Today I ruined and broke everything I ever had.

Today I also broke down out of bare fustration and confusion.

Today I hurt myself.

Today I also bled.

Today I was
finally bruised.

Today I was finally stripped barenaked out of my soul.

Today I did not find my courage, but I will tell myself that there will
always be tomorrow.

Today finally feels


Tuesday, October 13, 2009

yea right la ah

I am SO angry that I let you hurt me this way. )':

Monday, October 12, 2009

I can start to think already

"I can still remember the first day we smiled and
the first day we spoke. He was so beautiful. Almost unforgettable. I remember he
once saw the exact same perfect sunset as i did despite the distance
apart. I remind myself of it when i look at the texts exchanged and i can't
help but smile. Smile at the promises made , that
perhaps if forever didn't exist, there was still 'always'
to believe in. We shared the strangest most inner comfort of finding
peace in simplicty and to constantly look faith in the eyes. We shared our
thoughts on the beauty of a love so true and so surreal and faced our demons
head on when needed. Such committment and loyalty , together or apart,
i knew it would never break. Those days vividly entwine with the present
and i know it deep within me it will always live. He made me feel like an
honorable victim to my greatest weakness. His words and his touch still bring me
to my knees and i cannot understand my reaction no matter how hard i fight. I
pretend i am no longer affected by it and so i bury myself.I bury myself long
and hard into everything else around me so that reality wouldn't come in touch
with me. I live in my own darkness and i kind of like in there. I think he
knows. I think he knows everything about me . I think he knows that no one else
comes close . I think he knows it is because of him that i believe in forever.
But' i think' is never enough to last. So i try and forget how he used to look
at me with such grace..even till today.The anxiety accumulates when time does
not permit . Only because we choose to live seperate lives. I feel the
anticipation burst in my vessels everytime we meet again although i am not sure
if i am happy this way. I am not sure. I don't know . I think i may have lost
myself somewhere along the way. I always thought i had the right to feel larger
than life itself . I have all these beliefs and truths, but how far have they
fought for me? People may look at me with eyes of a thousand tales . Of how much
they care and believe in me. They speak to me of words filled with angels and
flowers. Words that enhances disappearing and insignificant moments . But then
they forget the important things. But he..he remembers.

You fall in love every once in a while but to fall
truly in love doesn't come easy. I did find it. But i caused for it to walk away
yet he still listens and loves me from afar despite my forceful invitation into
the darkness that i love to abide. He loves me for who i am , even from afar yet
i deemed him to be selfish. How foolish only now to finally see the kindness and
the sincerity he entrusts upon what we have. I vaugely told myself how much more
i wanted but i reckon it was because i was too blind to see. I always had the
best in front of me . I just never knew i did."

-Amanda Sue

From [: to (: to : to X:

Sunday, October 11, 2009

another reason why i can cry

I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile; how much I love your laugh. I day dream about you off and on,
replaying our conversations; laughing at funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagined. Even though neither of us know what the future holds,
I know one thing for sure; you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to


This is for you. You know who you are.

You were always hot and then later you were cold

When guys say that girls can really pms like a bitch. They're actually trying to say that "I can soooo pms like a bitch too".

Thursday, October 08, 2009

three cheers

"My friend came telling me that there will be certain
people in life who just don't care about me anymore. I wonder which one are
you? Miss E."

Eh pea-pole, I'm finally starting to feel stress in school. And do you know what? It's making me feel sane. (: Ok I shall shut-up now, back to readings. -jumps-

(credeits: FLB)

People read me like a book, but does anyone know that there's a sentence callled "READ BETWEEN THE LINES"? So tell me, why ah?????

not even this close

I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close
not even a little bit
not even at all.

Katerina KAT Stratford-10 things i hate about you.

School is gay. School is making me feel gay.

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Today, my boyfriend almost tried to kill me.

Miss E.

it's on

Starvation period: ON

Sunday, October 04, 2009

yucks i hate this feeling.

Ok for once, i'll type out a post, a REAL one.

Today is the last day of my summer holidays, and in about some hours time I'll be greeted with the smell of recycled air-conditioned 'air' and stale atmosphere of learning. I think this September holidays dragged on very long, infact too long, I don't know if anyone would second that, but hey, each to everyone's own opinion. So much happened all in the month of September, and all it needed to take was just one month, ONE BLOODY MONTH, to change everyone's life forever. For that I hate taking along emotional vacation baggage with me when school starts, it eventually will remind me either to or not to fix twists anymore, because it'll show me eventually what it'll do.

You see, I had this friend, well let's call him "A". I'll save you the digust of sappy stories, but the typical jist is, boy meets girl, girl meets boy. Boy and girl becomes close friends, then boy likes girl and girl likes boy. But girl has boy-friend. Girl is confused and unsure. Girl tries to 'fix' things, girl fails. Boy is heartstricken pain. Girl tries to make him stay. (*this part times 2)
In the end, boy and girl comes to a mutual decision that they will never talk again.
That can pretty much explain my torrentional emotions throughout the summer holidays. Oh yes, how can i forget, 1st October, 2009. The last hug but that was how he left me. There was once I thought I was invincible but he knew how to break me apart like an eggshell. The rain bled like yolk and my heart, stagnant, sucked out dry of every joyful emotion.

Sad, huh? But I still kneel on my bedside and pray, just like how i pray for everyone in my life to be kept safe and sound. But I pray, that you do move on, and I also pray that you could talk to me again. I still like to talk about you in my blog, and although this is the only medium i can ever use, I make believe that you're still around somehow. But make believe can only do so little, but it's good enough.

Saturday, October 03, 2009

nothing but

"I still tell myself that one day when your ringtone blast on my phone, it'll be
you and i'll come running to where you are. "

Miss E

Friday, October 02, 2009

I'm not going anywhere

Cause if one day you wake up, and find that you're missing me,
And your
heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe
come back here to the place that we meet,
And you'd see me waiting
to talk to
you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not really going to go anywhere. I'm not moving.

Revised by E.