YOU JUST MADE ME SO PISSED SO FUCKING PISSED. AND I'VE NEVER BEEN THIS PISSED WITH ANYONE BEFORE.

Not only did you dare lie behind my back, you did it right infront of me and DENIED every single fact. I thought I could trust you and i actually let you in and i was there for you at every single down-turn of your life. BUT you played me like a fool and indeed i was the fool who vowed to be there for you NO MATTER what. You make me so sick that I cannot bear to even say your name.

I am so mad at you right now because I let you hurt me this way.

smile

I don't know why the hell i uploaded a photo of myself. I'm not trying to tell the world that I am a self proclaimed narcissist. But since it's there, i'll just let it stay there. That photo was however was taken by a friend (last 2 weeks ago) that needed to be submitted to see if i fit the role as a "mother" for some film.

Anyway, just looking at myself and I realize quite somethings. All girls will always admit one or more flaw about themselves, and I too can count them with my fingers and toes. I get intimidated by very pretty looking girls on Facebook and it fills up my head with a sundry of "I wish...". You can blame it on the media for setting up "invisible standards" on how girls should look like and that for a matter of fact, is stupid and fucked up.

But i know that EVERYONE looks so pretty when they smile. (:

So this is it. The final semester. Only this time, it hurts more.

Everyone has big dreams and aspirations, goals and wishes in life, and i hope that it will lead you to where you want to go to. The first day of the last semester starts tomorrow, and as much as i look forward to class and graduating with everyone, i am terribly scared to take another step down. Every moment in school will be a memory kept in my heart, I'm not prepared at all to leave Singapore next year, because i know i will be leaving so many things behind. Hence you will understand why i've always said that I am so afraid of the future. You can't lie to me and say "Fret not." Because everyone is scared of the future.

5-7 years down the road now, i can't see where will i be or what i will be doing, time has flown by so fast and i can only wish, why didn't i spent it much harder and better? This is my final year and semester, I'm sure it will finish off with a bang, and we'll shine like the stars and be called the next "legends".