Tuesday, September 30, 2008
And if i wanna choose a date to walk out and leave, it's going to be today.
I've changed all passwords and status, so you can see that i'm finally going to make up my mind to a chapter that i might want to stop writing.
And if you do apologise, i hope you're sorry that i'm about to move on.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Yea that's a partial picture of Muffin's body btw. But what struck me about the dog tag of his was, he had a pair instead of 1. So out of curosity i asked "why was the other one empty?" and he gave me a reply with a hearty smile telling me it would be kept for that someone truly special to him and someone he might just wanna marry. And yea being the typical girl who would gush over the cute-est and most sweetest thing heard and seen, i 'AWWWW'ED pretty hysertically. Pretty much to show that the future girl would always be kept close to his heart. It's just the most darnest, most damest, sweetest thing.
Nah i'm not advertising for Muffin on my blog. But thought i'd share it with you readers out there. (:
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
but half the time you tell me "up to you"
And just tonight, you told me you couldn't care anymore.
Sure you are the first to really take care of me when i'm sick, but did you know you're the first to have frequently raised his voice at me and yell at me?
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
Dear Haney, please don't think i don't know who you are, because I do. You're Shafiq's ex. The very same girl who texted me eons and eons ago to leave your boyfriend alone. But I would like to thank you for actually leaving your true name behind. Because it goes to show that you do like to settle scores in a civilized manner.And correct me if you must, but you must be my age this year, 18 and if i'm not wrong studying at mdis? And another thing, if your anger is to take out on me because i was friends with your boyfriend. Could you please be a little more sensible enough? If there's something shafiq never told you, i was never his fling or girl, i was just his friend, and i have evidence to prove that very fact.
Secondly, i do not have the slightest idea on what gives you the right to judge someone as ugly?Because before you do that, always do a little judgement & soul searching on yourself. 1) what do you determine as ugly? Because talks of how 'beauty is seen in everything' would backfire itself? 2) I don't believe that i have any affect in your life one way or another. But if i've dysfunctioned it someway or another, drop me another tag.
Thirdly, do not bring me into any of your past shit with shafiq, if so i might as well you give the list of names of the girls who he's been going out with and why not bother them and let them be part of your baseless critism as well. And for tits sake, let it go would yer? (he didn't tell me this) But have a little more dignity and just let it go. If you hate me, fine, by all means, i'm good and i have friends who are worth of my time. I do admit that i do have an idiosyncrastic side of me but i'm not using a rifle like those soldiers used in the middle east war to point at the minds to point at your head to tell you to accept my idiosyncrasy because that would be too domineering of me now won't it? So for my tits sake, how can i affect you again?
Although you merely tagged about 3-4 times, those baseless criticsm makes my day and it allowed me something to blog about. I'm expecting that you're gonna tag again, but feel free too. Whether you're gonna be mean or nice, what do i care? My confidence and my zest for life does not depend on anyone's opinion or judgement of me. I have a rough gauge on who you are, but i'm not judging you like how you judged me, your assesment of the person that is me should have any creditability at all for me to give a shit about what you think.
Again i'll say, have a chill pill & take a century to think of what you can say to me more. Have a good day.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
So promise me you'll
Call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let my be your shelter my friend
with all my love,
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Do you remember that one time when I came down to the park and wore my fisherman berms and you said i look like a 'Kampong-Minah'?
Do you remember how you use to talk to me like as though no one was ever around?
Do you remember how i use to creep under the bed with the phone/laptop in my hand and i'd talked really hush so that i wouldn't make a sound?
Do you remember that?
And only now, how did you ever found the courage to come talk to me, when i have been waiting under the vanishing sky everyday to come talk to you? And would it hurt to say i miss you my friend?
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Oh and hear ye, hear ye, i've bought the cloth already! I can't wait to start the expedition of messing with cloth and the sewing machine!
Thursday, September 11, 2008
*ever since that mishap that happened on sunday i already knew that things would have never been the same ever again. However i guess i have to live like that for now and probably forever. So tonight i'll kneel down beside my bed to pray and ask dear God that this won't be for long. Because i cant make up my fucking mind. And God had to make months, and my period falls this week.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
-stares at him at one corner-
yes yes i'm damn sure i'm going to try FIRST to make a dress, so wish me good luck, if all goes well. Then hehehehehehehe tell me, i'll be your fairy dress mother. (: I think school is swell, i'm doing just fine, the normal me is still around in class. And everyone is finally so comfortable with everyone. No formalities needed, we've even started calling each other weird nick-names. So to my old W15D, a word of advice, be resistant to change and DON'T be a clam and shun away. Remember but you'll be with this class longer then you were with the previous sem, you'll be with them till like jan 2009. Just open up and open your mouth and talk. I know talk is easy. But literally, in this context it is. So try hard alright? Good luck (:
Monday, September 08, 2008
god, i love that boy of mine. (:
Sunday, September 07, 2008
Thursday, September 04, 2008
Oh and i swear to God but i fell in love with the eyes of Stef when i took this picture. Who wouldn't? Those goddamn cute puppy eyes. Still i can't seem to find out what or why or how i fell for a guy like him? Maybe I was right. And so was God, that He truly must have loved me so much to have given him to me. (: