so shout out whatever you wanted to say

Why do we SHOUT when we are ANGRY?

One day, a professor asked his students ‘Why do we SHOUT instead of speak when we are ANGRY?’
All the students thought for a while. One answered ‘Because we lost our cool. That’s why we SHOUT.’
Asked the professor again, ‘But the person is just right next to you, why can’t we talk softly but have to SHOUT?’
Everyone gave their opinions but none was accepted by the professor.

Lastly explained by the professor ‘When we are ANGRY, our hearts drift apart. To mask the DISTANCE we felt, we instinctively SHOUT instead of speak so the other party can hear us.’
‘But as we SHOUT, we get ANGRIER. And we felt we drift apart further. So we SHOUT even louder…’
‘It is the opposite when we are in love. Not only we do not shout, we whisper into each other ears. Why?’
‘This is because our hearts are very close, almost never apart. As our love deepens, we reach a state of communication where there is no need for words.’
‘We understand each other well enough just by exchanging look,’ concluded the professor.
Therefore, when we are arguing, DO NOT speak words that will make our hearts drift apart. WAIT a few days. When you feel your hearts are no longer far apart, pick up the conversation and continue from there.


YES THIS!

This is fun guys! (: I just started my album entitled "The world. The people. & my life through polaroid lens"

Christmas IS for EVERYONE

Merry Christmas to all earthlings (:

I've had a swell Christmas and it's been one of the best ones yet. I don't know why but how could it be that every Christmas, I can only wake up to find myself that I've always been terribly blessed with everything and everyone I have in my life. How terrible aren't I? So anyway, I hope everyone got what they wanted for their Christmas this year and I hope you guys had a blessed one as well. (:

Glad you love the Ipodtouch love. I HEART mine indeed. (:

I WANT TO WATCH THIS! )':

My very own inner self's thought

because I'll be

So just hurry the clock and push to December 31st,11.59 pm please!

Things inside my head

Murni told me a statement almost the same as this today. It didn't strike me dead hard, till afterawhile, the pins and needles of that awkward feeling I hate to feel. The feeling of disappointment+frustration+yucky feelings that is equivalent on getting your period. I didn't had to read it at all actually, she was right but the feeling that poked me and left my skin feeling a deep brush of the cold rainy weather. And then my head continued to ached again, and then later my heart, than my stomache, than my heart.FUCK.

Dark blue dark blue have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

The moon started shining on the sky at about 8pm last night. Then only at about 1.30 am it shone brighter than before with a halo resting on its body. As I lay on my bed enjoying the delightful view, it's then I saw your face on the moon. Because I remembered 2 occasions on a night like this.

1, the bad one when we had a big argument
2, the good one when we sat across the stars and wanted nothing more than that moment to never end.

-E

love don't come easy

Ans: The reason why love has it's downs as
well as the ups.

"love don't come easy.It's a game of give
and
take"

-The Supremes (You can't hurry love)

i will crush you

Someone was telling me this while i was half-listening to our conversation, and I remembered nodding my head furiously like a bobble-head. We were in the rain trying to make sense out of life and the people who treat our hearts like an entrance/exit shopping mall. Then I realized, there were 2 confused and shagged people walking under the rain.
I'm angry that not only did i let people hurt me this way, but I'm angry because I'm getting fustrated at letting people do this to me.

i cannot fanthom

and she said "Shhhh don't tell anyone"

oh yea

"cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street"

The Script-The man who can't be moved

all i do

All I do the whole night through
Is dream of you
And with the dawn
I still go on dreamin' of you
You're every thought
You're everything
You're every song I ever sing
Summer, winter, autumn and spring.
-Gene Kelley "Singing in The Rain"

guess this is why i am always so distracted now a these days.

For M and probably me Part II

"Yes I remember. " she said

"But I think that's how you or I, or was it both of us, that wanted it that way, I think it's you. Oh you make me so confused with your uncertainty" she said, again.


-E

For you

To my brokenhearted friend, M and probably me.

Something that you've always done and i want to thank you. (:
-E

FOR kAT

Strange as it seems, all memories that I've ever made and had, you are by far, the most distinct and strongest one.

I tell myself this every other day.

Fidelity

To couples:
You are not gona promise
each other that you will not disappoint one another, because at some point you
will. What is important is you dont go away, you dont escape, you dont leave one
another just because you are disappointed.
Thats the meaning of
fidelity.



-FLB.blogger

So don't you ever dare leave me ok?

I died in your eyes

"I don't know what to think or how i should feel anymore. My heart goes in all directions but my body wants to stay solitary. "
-E

fine then

FUCKING SHITHOLE.

this is why

This is why I found myself in love and staying in love. (:

you'll always be my thunder

"Your voice was the soundtrack of my
summer."

Boys like Girls-Thunder

(:

I probably shouldn't say this But at times I get
so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome, but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you
hear
My dear

The seven things I hate about you
The seven things I hate about you
Oh, you
You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry, I don't know
which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks, when you act like
them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you
do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it I'll believe
it
If you text it I'll delete
it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not comin back
You're taking seven steps
here

The seven things I hate about you
You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry, I don't know
which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks, when you act like
them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you
do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The seven that I like

The seven things I like about you
Your hair,
Your eyes,
Your old
levi's,
When we kiss, I'm hypnotized
You made me laugh, you made me cry, but I guess
that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine when we're intertwined,
everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I like the most that you
do
You make me love you

-Miley Cyrus aka Hannah Montana

Thank you but this is for all guys with dicks,

No woman, no cry the say. To all guys with dicks.

i can just die now

THE SUPER DIRTY CHEAP SLUT
WHORE.


-E

Today.

Today I ruined and broke everything I ever had.

Today I also broke down out of bare fustration and confusion.

Today I hurt myself.

Today I also bled.

Today I was
finally bruised.

Today I was finally stripped barenaked out of my soul.

Today I did not find my courage, but I will tell myself that there will
always be tomorrow.

Today finally feels
good.


-E

yea right la ah

I am SO angry that I let you hurt me this way. )':

I can start to think already

"I can still remember the first day we smiled and
the first day we spoke. He was so beautiful. Almost unforgettable. I remember he
once saw the exact same perfect sunset as i did despite the distance
apart. I remind myself of it when i look at the texts exchanged and i can't
help but smile. Smile at the promises made , that
perhaps if forever didn't exist, there was still 'always'
to believe in. We shared the strangest most inner comfort of finding
peace in simplicty and to constantly look faith in the eyes. We shared our
thoughts on the beauty of a love so true and so surreal and faced our demons
head on when needed. Such committment and loyalty , together or apart,
i knew it would never break. Those days vividly entwine with the present
and i know it deep within me it will always live. He made me feel like an
honorable victim to my greatest weakness. His words and his touch still bring me
to my knees and i cannot understand my reaction no matter how hard i fight. I
pretend i am no longer affected by it and so i bury myself.I bury myself long
and hard into everything else around me so that reality wouldn't come in touch
with me. I live in my own darkness and i kind of like in there. I think he
knows. I think he knows everything about me . I think he knows that no one else
comes close . I think he knows it is because of him that i believe in forever.
But' i think' is never enough to last. So i try and forget how he used to look
at me with such grace..even till today.The anxiety accumulates when time does
not permit . Only because we choose to live seperate lives. I feel the
anticipation burst in my vessels everytime we meet again although i am not sure
if i am happy this way. I am not sure. I don't know . I think i may have lost
myself somewhere along the way. I always thought i had the right to feel larger
than life itself . I have all these beliefs and truths, but how far have they
fought for me? People may look at me with eyes of a thousand tales . Of how much
they care and believe in me. They speak to me of words filled with angels and
flowers. Words that enhances disappearing and insignificant moments . But then
they forget the important things. But he..he remembers.

You fall in love every once in a while but to fall
truly in love doesn't come easy. I did find it. But i caused for it to walk away
yet he still listens and loves me from afar despite my forceful invitation into
the darkness that i love to abide. He loves me for who i am , even from afar yet
i deemed him to be selfish. How foolish only now to finally see the kindness and
the sincerity he entrusts upon what we have. I vaugely told myself how much more
i wanted but i reckon it was because i was too blind to see. I always had the
best in front of me . I just never knew i did."

-Amanda Sue
Ann

From [: to (: to : to X:

another reason why i can cry

I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile; how much I love your laugh. I day dream about you off and on,
replaying our conversations; laughing at funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagined. Even though neither of us know what the future holds,
I know one thing for sure; you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to
me.


-FLB

This is for you. You know who you are.

You were always hot and then later you were cold

When guys say that girls can really pms like a bitch. They're actually trying to say that "I can soooo pms like a bitch too".

three cheers

"My friend came telling me that there will be certain
people in life who just don't care about me anymore. I wonder which one are
you? Miss E."

Eh pea-pole, I'm finally starting to feel stress in school. And do you know what? It's making me feel sane. (: Ok I shall shut-up now, back to readings. -jumps-

(credeits: FLB)

People read me like a book, but does anyone know that there's a sentence callled "READ BETWEEN THE LINES"? So tell me, why ah?????

not even this close

I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close
not even a little bit
not even at all.

Katerina KAT Stratford-10 things i hate about you.

School is gay. School is making me feel gay.

Today, my boyfriend almost tried to kill me.

Miss E.

it's on

Starvation period: ON

yucks i hate this feeling.

Ok for once, i'll type out a post, a REAL one.

Today is the last day of my summer holidays, and in about some hours time I'll be greeted with the smell of recycled air-conditioned 'air' and stale atmosphere of learning. I think this September holidays dragged on very long, infact too long, I don't know if anyone would second that, but hey, each to everyone's own opinion. So much happened all in the month of September, and all it needed to take was just one month, ONE BLOODY MONTH, to change everyone's life forever. For that I hate taking along emotional vacation baggage with me when school starts, it eventually will remind me either to or not to fix twists anymore, because it'll show me eventually what it'll do.

You see, I had this friend, well let's call him "A". I'll save you the digust of sappy stories, but the typical jist is, boy meets girl, girl meets boy. Boy and girl becomes close friends, then boy likes girl and girl likes boy. But girl has boy-friend. Girl is confused and unsure. Girl tries to 'fix' things, girl fails. Boy is heartstricken pain. Girl tries to make him stay. (*this part times 2)
In the end, boy and girl comes to a mutual decision that they will never talk again.
That can pretty much explain my torrentional emotions throughout the summer holidays. Oh yes, how can i forget, 1st October, 2009. The last hug but that was how he left me. There was once I thought I was invincible but he knew how to break me apart like an eggshell. The rain bled like yolk and my heart, stagnant, sucked out dry of every joyful emotion.

Sad, huh? But I still kneel on my bedside and pray, just like how i pray for everyone in my life to be kept safe and sound. But I pray, that you do move on, and I also pray that you could talk to me again. I still like to talk about you in my blog, and although this is the only medium i can ever use, I make believe that you're still around somehow. But make believe can only do so little, but it's good enough.

nothing but

"I still tell myself that one day when your ringtone blast on my phone, it'll be
you and i'll come running to where you are. "


Miss E

I'm not going anywhere

Cause if one day you wake up, and find that you're missing me,
And your
heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe
you'll
come back here to the place that we meet,
And you'd see me waiting
to talk to
you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not really going to go anywhere. I'm not moving.

Revised by E.

what if i don't want to say goodbye?

(credits: FLB)

I can honestly say
You've been on my mind
Since I woke up today, up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind



I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember 'till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
A memory I want to forget
Is goodbye



I woke up this morning
And played our song
And through my tears I sang along
I picked up the phone and than
Put it down'cause I know I'm wasting my time
And I don't mind



I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember 'till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
A memory I want to forget



Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up
With your ring tone
I hesitate but answer it anyway
You sound so alone
And I'm surprised to hear you say


You remember when we kissed
You still feel it on your lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
You remember those simple things
We talked 'till we cried
You said that your biggest regret
The one that you wish I'd forget
Is saying goodbye
Saying goodbye

Oh, Goodbye

MileyCyrus-Goodbye

gay but it was playing in my head the entire morning.

indeed

Knock us out

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down. Just get back up, when
it knocks you down.


Keri Hilson

devour me

YOU CAN

BREAK ME DOWN,
PUSH ME AWAY,
DO THINGS OUT OF SPITE,
TREAT ME AS COLD AS YOU LIKE,
SAY ALL THAT YOU WANT YOU TO SAY,

but

that won't push me any further away.

devour

I am still in the process of recovering from what has happened but I
have embraced reality and thought things would be okay. Not the same, but just
okay. However, it doesn’t seem to be going along the path of Okay. I have made
myself very clear to you and you were agreeable to it so why are you being all
weird towards me? I don’t want that. All I want from you is to me normal towards
me like every other friend you have. Is that too much? You have got me thinking
a lot about what we had, what we shared, got me thinking if everything was real.
And it’s all because of how you are towards me now. I can’t read your signs,
they are very confusing.

I am angry that I let you hurt me this way


-Donteatmycake

Oh heartbreak

Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can't watch you walk away

Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we've been through
Could I wake up without you every day?
Would I let you walk away?
No, I can't learn to live without
And I can't give up on us now

Oh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
A promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie no more.

Carrie
Underwood.

figure us out

You say unexpected things to yourself you'll probably regret and i try to
resurrect the way that i felt the day that we met.

Chelsea Lee

Don't go

I don't know what words to say that could make you feel the way we should be feeling. And I don't know where to go or what to do, although I know I've made my decision. Still you're the one that I can never let go, so please don't go. We will make this work one day.

Smells like my season

In order for this to work

I think i might totally be lost

5:19

With one eye on the clock
And one on the phoneIt's 5:19...
I'm feeling alone
And if I could talk to you
I'd want you to know
I'm holding loose
But ain't letting go

Did you really forget what we were feeling inside? Because you're leaving me to forget about us.

where are you

Wait for the person who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary
moment seem magical, the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes
you want to be a better person ; wait for the person who will be your best
friend , the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no
matter what the circumstances, for the person who makes you smile like no one
else and when they smile you know they need you. Wait for the person who wants
to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and a tee shirt, but
appreciates it when you get dressed up for them. And most of all, wait for the
person who will put you up at the center of their universe, because that’s where
you belong.

Between 519 and 520

When you cry a piece of my heart dies
Knowing that I may have been the cause
If you were to leave
Fulfill someone else's dreams
I think I might totally be lost
You don't ask for no diamond rings no delicate string of pearls
That's why I wrote this song to sing
My beautiful girl

On a Tuesday night, you looked me in the eye and you sang this words

Burning all your bridges down

Under the night sky, I vowed like a fool. And I shit you not, but i promised to you that I'll be there for you. But just when I came back from enchanting Shang-Hai, you point your finger at me telling me I've changed and I became so cold and distant. I just ponder, but how can someone be as equally mean to me and show no sense in pity for my plight that I'm fighting a virus that was just 50% close of that of h1n1.

I just wonder why,
I just wonder why,
I just fucking wonder why,

how you turn out to be someone who is about to say goodbye?

oh no we're headed for heartbreak

Always under or above,
I don't know how to decipher if it is love,
I know that it has to be a me and a you,
But both of us have different views,
Of course i'll be alright,
I guess i just had a bad night.

That's Shakespeare in love

Your lips that pours out words like his.

O, she doth teach the torches to burn bright!
It seems she hangs upon the cheek of night
Like a rich jewel in an Ethiope's ear;
beauty too rich for use, for earth too dear!
So shows a snowy dove trooping with crows,
As yonder lady o'er her fellows shows.
The measure done, I'll watch her place of stand,
And, touching hers, make blessed my rude hand.
Dud, my heart love till now? forswear it, sight!
For i ne'er saw true beauty till this night.

Romeo & Juliet, William Shakespeare

I do not love you except because i love you

By your favourite poet Pablo Neruda

I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.

I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.

Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.

In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood

for the first time in the longest time

Erika: I'd say
Erika:Pfft
Erika:Egoistic
T: Haha

Erika: Indeed a very interesting character you are
T: Nah, i'm really really very boring.
T:Like really

Erika: Boring to you, interesting to me
Erika: I pick up alot about you

T: I just know you like chocolates
T: Alot
T: Haha

T: Ok brb, i need to take a bath
Erika: Haha

A few days later, on your blog,

"I think you’ll understand
When I say that something
I wanna hold your hand"


There are so many things I want to ask you, but I never did for I'd fear to be compared to a fool. Ever since that day, you've been shooting signals and lines, and I swear I cannot decipher even one. For the first time, I cannot understand this shit, and I thought I had it. But you always prove me wrong in the end, when I am ready to go my own way, you keep coming back and you have your inawkward ability to make me feel so vulnerable and weak to my knees.

MM

To all my ladies:

A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't love, and leaves before she is left

Marilyn Monroe

terribly blessed

There's a reason why I don't make a wish for every birthday,

I'm terribly blessed.

I have a family who loves me so much even though they can be dysfunctional.

I have quite a number of friends whom i can really say friends.

I have a unique boyfriend.

I have almost everything I ever needed or wanted.

What's more there to ask for?

I was so fucking stupid part II

Hell I knew it was you first

i was so fucking stupid

Fate decides who walks into your life.
You decide who stays, who you allow to walk away, and who you refuse to let leave you.

If i can't have it, i'll steal it

Stolen sugar is the sweetest

Hindi saying

apple & cinnamon

A love so sweet and innocent,
Chemistry like apple and cinnamon.

It's not a feeling but it's still love

On a night, today, I
-Ate my dinner: CHECK
-Studied for Digital Media Arts UT: CHECK (Well, browsed through it and wrote ritchets of small notes on paper to be precise)
-Spoke to Stef: CHECK
-Washed my shoes that got soaked in the rain last Friday: CHECK
-Bathe: NOT CHECK

Now, lately, people have had the word 'Trouble' brewing about in their relationships, & how do I know that? I overhear convos between girl packs whispering 'If he loves you, he'll come back'. I get people running to me like I'm the new Oprah Winfrey or Dr Phil. So then I thought about sharing some of me thoughts that I'd passed down the knowledge too.

1. Trust, Talk & Tau Sar Pau

I think it's simple, really, how can anyone not built their relationship on trust? And to talk, my dear friends, we all speak English, and despite having to bring out discussions and topics with your partners might mean resentment. At least you know you checked it off your '10 things I hate about you and i hope that something would be done' list, it gets rid of excessive baggage. Lastly, tau sar pau. Enjoy your sweet love on the sweet bun. I heard the Pau Shop at Bukit Timah is simply scrumptious to the dough.

2. "If it's not you, then it's me. If' it's not me, then it's you. If it's neither of us, it's the world"

This is one of the fire starters that can lead to arguments and breakups, 'It's not you, it's me...' Well to put it bluntly, of course it's not you, it's the other party then. But out of the many people who use this line, use it as a short cut to snubbing out the last few flames of fire left thus leaving no room for anything else. But when you jump into love, you take all the good and the bad. Accept your partner's flaws and see delight in them. I think Stef's inability to organize his time is cute sometimes although it can land him on the hot clay pot of my favourite herbal clay pot beef rice, but it's so cute when i see him get frustrated.

3. "Extra! Extra! Read all about it, 11-12 year old Romeo & Juliet end up ringing each others' neck because they forgot to buy candy"

You'll be awestruked but every couple has it's day, and every couple can fight about the most stupidest, most dumbest, most frivolous stuff. I know of a couple who fought over a sleepover they had and the girl was angry at the boy because he slept on her pillow instead of his. I know of couples who fight over where to eat, and what to eat as well.

However there are couples who fight about the future, about different point of views, who fight because of the pressures put on them even if it's inexplicitly shown. But true that every fight makes the relationship stronger, and with every fight you built yourself up. So forgive and forget and take one step at a time. Despite the different fustrations and pressures set upon each individual, we're all humans, we're not God. We can't do everything and anything, we can't do much to help us for the future, when in reality check, no one knows the future. So take a day as it is. And definitely take a pressure at a time. Don't end up like pressure cookers!

Well i guess that's all i have for now, I think i should re read my notes again. Have a great night. (:

The way we used to be

“don’t cry at night, we’ll be alrightjust take a day at a time, you know
you’ll never lose me.I’ve made up my mind, it’s about timeI’ll be by your side,
you’re no more ever lonely.”

The scarlet ending

Happy birthday my friend.

HEY NISHA SUNIL! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEST FRIEND! (: 7 YEARS AND COUNTING!
-SUPER BEAMS-

Oh it is love

Someone please call NASA, because I'm feeling out of this world! (: My heart is jumping up and down like a jumping jelly bean! Although the pictures are taken on Wednesday, none the least, I'm happy to share the news that

ERIKA SHIMADA
JUST

CELEBRATED

HER
VERY VERY VERY
FIRST

YEAR
WITH

HER
OTHER-HALF,
BOYFRIEND,
STEFANUS TAN!

I gave him a candlelight dinner picnic under the stars over at bontannical gardens. Not alot of pictures were taken, because we both couldn't contain our excitement, and we both had the same sentiments that this day of our anniversary is just the start to the others. (:

Because i had prepared a special video cum ppt for him, I brought out my laptop and someone asked if there was wireless at the Bontannical Gardens. How inapt indeed. The weather was shreiking hot, and there were quite a few flies, so in order to chase them away I lit up my lighter and started chasing them away, till someone screamed from nowhere 'YEA ROCK ON HIPPIE GIRL!'.

After the meal at bontannical gardens, we drove over to Dempsey Hill to tone the night and our tummies for some tea over at Jones Grocer. And there we met Ilya Noor, who happened to served us that evening. (: Oh and that night, Stef spat on someone's lamborghini.

So to all those skeptics and non-believers, this first year anniversary with Stef is just an entree for you guys, wait up for 8 course meal to be served up right in your face. (: