SONIC EDGE AT THE GIVE STAGE.  

A PIECE AT SONICFEST. 

i'll run

YEA,WENT TO SONICFEST!
last day though.and i thoroughly enjoyed it.
i gave MARK the luck extra ticket,and we both went in together. [:
such a friendly dude,you should have like seen the way he danced and worshipped! [:
glad that the Lord touched you deeply yea? (:
yes, it was the ultimate festival,dared to say it was better then last years!
but i had open-house in the morning which like totoally ruined it larrs.
ROARRS! ]:
oh wells,but overall i had one of a day,and yes this time i enjoyed it.
the art gallery was awsome,so many creative pieces yea?
an sonicflood,and planetshakers totoally shaked and flooded the place with the Lord's presence! (:
im finally freee!


I LIVE BY FAITH AND NOT BY SIGHT

SONCIFEST

I won't care what people will say,
im running after You,
i won't turn back and go their way,
cause i'm running after You.

SONICFEST,completely was wild and tremendously GREAT!
(:
i'm finally FREED! (:

yikes that WHITE THING THERE. 

SO YESTERDAY.

If it's over let it go and,
when you wake up it will seem so yesterday,so yesterday.
HAVEN'T YOU HEARD,THAT IM GONNA BE OGAY? (:
i must have been STEWPID,like SERIOUSLY LARRS.
it's THE END of HIM AND ME.
JUST SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING. ):
he was actually just a waste of my time.
all those bullshit of saying he would treat me right?
ROARRS!
AHHH go listen to JO-JO's (leave,GET OUT)
it summarises the whole thing.
can't belive this is happening to you too.
NOW YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS!
anyway, GET THIS RIGHT!
I BREAK YOU!

oh wells,anyway,i pretty am slightly better,im getting there soon.
thanks to MY BELOVED FRIENDS! (:
GANDHI LOVES ALL OF YOU! (:
OOO! SONICFEST TOMORROW! CAN'T WAIT
RARRS!
[:
oh wells, but blardy hell i JUST have to HAVE a performance THIS SATURDAY! ):
ROARRS! ]:
oh wells. CHANGING MY BLOGSKIN SOON! (:
can't wait!
hmmm i better hit back too my books,
can't afford to retain this year! nah uh!
toodles! (:

"I was your girl
Gave you my world
My everything
But you wouldn´t see

I had your back
I backed you up
Whatever I did
Was never enough

Just youYou
That's all you ever thought about
YouYou
No one matters like you do
What goes around comes around
You should know by now

Bet you never thought that I could break you
Did you think that I would look the other way
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now

The palm of your hand
That was your plan
Gave me no time
But now you want mine

It's all about take
You took too much
Nothing inside
I'm all used up

Come on
YouYou
Nothing else matters like you do
You know what I'm talkin' ‘bout don't you
What goes around comes around
You should know by now

Bet you never thought that I could break you
Did you think that I would look the other way
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now
On your one night stands(should've thought about that)
Says she's just a friend(should've thought about that)
Are you satisfied now?(should've thought about that)
Cause you can't hold me down
Not nowI wanna thank you ‘cause now I'm free
I can breathe again and I'm never going back to you

Bet you never thought that I could break you
Did you think that I would look the other way?
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now
Yeah yeah
Bet you never thought that I could break you
(Bet you never thought that I could break you)
Did you think that I would look the other way
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now""

TODAY WAS ONE OF MY WORST DAYS OF MY LIFE.
RROARSS! ):
I HATE YOU! I SWEAR I HATE YOU!
SO BE IT!
YOU PHUGGING SON OF A BITCH. WHO THE HELL NEEDS YOU ANYWAY,I'LL BE JSUT FINE,WITH OR WITHOUT YOU.
I GOT OTHER PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD WHO CARES MORE FOR ME,
THEN YOU DO!
I TOTOALLY WASTED MY MONEY,TIME,LOVE,LIFE ON SOMETHING THAT JUST WOULDN'T LAST.
HELL RIGHT,YOU MADE THIS PHUGGED UP MESS.
I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.
I DON'T KNOW YOU ANYMORE,
WHATEVER YOU SAID OR DID TO ME WERE JUST A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT.
I JUST PITY YOUR NEXT GF,WHO'S GONNA SUFFER THE SAME FATE THAT EACH GIRL DID IN YOUR LIFE.
SO PHUG YOURSELF BACK UP.

" I'm wishin' you the best
Pray that you are blessed
Bring much success, no stress, and lots of happiness
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gon blast you on the radio
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gon lie on you and your family
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gon hate on you in the magazines('m better than that)
I'm not gon compromise my Christianity(I'm better than that)
You know I'm not gon diss you on the internet
Cause my mama taught me better than that""

hell yes, anyway, im pretty much gonna die soon,wo why can't someone jsut shoot me.
just ease my suffering.
i just wanna be happy.
that's all i ask.

BLOGGER

YES I HATE BLOGGER.
goodness.
it wont like take my skin.
ROARRS.
GRRRRRRRR.
i'll just change my skin when im free, which is NEVER? MERHER,
but then again it should be soon
oh eck it. at the moment im doing my F and N research, studying for chemistry and blogging.
yet to realise i haven't studied for anything for CHEMISTRY! (:
merher,well done erika. (:
im pretty tired.
and i don't know why i felt so much better after screaming it all of towards that person! (:
GRRRRR,
swear im GONNA BREAK YOU!
ROARRS.
oh wells,im SMILING NOW.
im FREED. (:
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
and for once in my whole life,i danced like a happy child under the rain! (:
FEELS SO GOOD!(:
duuuuurnn, HELL YEA RIGHT! (:

i was wondering if like i should change my blogskin. give me comments everyone. (:
anyway, he called me this morning,and i was really grouchy. nevertheless, i was happy to hear his voice,but at the same time i crashed down,cause i didn't get to hear those magic words. ):
then,later i received a message from gabriel. SURPRISED AND SHOCKED, i was nice enough to reply back.
and we text each other for a while till 2+ i guess.
he told me alot of stuff,which im still pending to belive.
but i really do wonder,whatever that he said was true.

does love sucks? i don't know.i don't even know what the hell im going through at the moment.
i just want the hurt to go away,but as day's pass byit's getting lighter.
i'm trying to keep my eyes forward,the future is rushing to mef faster than i can comprehend,and if just keep my head turned backwards(technically)
just looking at the past,
i will miss seeing everything that the future that the Lord hasp planned for me.
i'm staying HOPEFUL! (:
RARR!

so just leave me alone, cause seriously, YOU DID THIS! 

STILL

oh well, i finally went for cell this time. didn't i?
didn't realised i've been missing out alot.
but then again,im glad i came back. (:
missed you babes too. (:
RARR.

anyway,when i passed by your place today,unknowingly.
my heart ached. (SERIOUSLY!)
it really had a glitch of pain,
i couldnt breathe for that second.
i wanted to screech HALT
and asked the person driving to drive to your place.
painful memories and painful obessesions, are what is left behind.

if only if i could see you,i'll memorise your face
and if i could give you one kiss,
i'll never forget the taste.

DOWN!

Yes,pick me up NOW!
i REALLY REALLY need you so bad.

i spent my whole afternoon with jesmin,sara koh,nisha,nemo and joey at jesmin's place.
it was pretty much clear that they wanted to cheer me up.
guess what babes!
YOU DID JUST THAT!
but i'll still take some time to heal.
i was like so tempted to wait at his school and give him a hug and a kiss larr. ):
sigh.
sprayed that addidas deodarant on me and it smelt like you! ):
but what difference does it make,im not here to hug you like i always do. ):
i'm still gonna wait,cause i still love you and i always will.
it's just no use pretending that you are here next to me,cause YOU'RE NOT HERE.
don't you get it?
you're it!you're the ultimate.
it's automatic, and im sure of it.
NO LIE! so don't even bother telling me that you're not the guy.
cause i've been waiting all my life,
for someone just like you.
YOU'RE IT! YOU'RE THE ULTIMATE YOU!. (:

when you left,
i lost a part of me
it's still so hard to belive
come back baby please,cause
we belong together

who else am i gonna lean on
when times get rough
who's gonna talk to me
till the sun comes up
who's gonna take your place
baby nobody else
cause we belong together.

my sister and me. (: 

Twas a long hot and sweaty day,
nevertheless,
i managed to smile. (:
so thanks to everyone who put a smile on my face. (:
i love you ta bits and pieces. (:
yeap.
so anyway,i still thought about him.
and yea i miss him still.
but i'll get through,i slowy am anyway. (:
so yeap. (:

JULIET LIVED A LIE

so what?
what's gonna happened?
i'm broken, FINALLY broken.
I'm juliet,she totoally lived a lie.
you were my romeo. You were my everything.
can you come back please?
can you fight back for what is yours please?
*cont'd*

HAVE YOU EVER

BABY.
please tell my why?
im playing the willful part of GISELLE and JULIET
you didn't mean it,didn't you?
you know i love you
you know we belong together.
you know that two in love can make it,we took each other heart's and we promised ont to ever break it.
cause love was meant for only us.

so baby,things have to be this way eh?
well i guess i'm willing to wait.
and plus eileen, was a big much of a help.
appreciated that sweet girl.
so baby if you are reading this.
i just want to let you know,
that
NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU,
AND I'LL LOVE YOU MORE EACH DAY,YES?
(:


YOU ARE MY ROMEO AND I'LL ALWAYS BE YOUR JULIET. (:

the callings

i called so many times last night.
and i slammed down the phone when you didn't pick up.
i called you again today, AND FOR GOD'S SAKE.
you finally answered!
are you hiding something from me?
are you faking yourself?
are you here to stay or here then to go?
are you the one?
just exactly where were you when i needed you so bad.
tattered teddies and sweet kisses,
sums up the days we always had.
was it cause of me?
or was it cause of you?
you never kept most of your promises.
but none the less.
i carried on loving you and seeing through all those imperfections didnt i? (:

golly. (:

"I'm tuggin' out my hair
I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My checks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

{Pre-Chorus}(Cause) I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it Yeah

::Chorus::
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you, away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezin' you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee"Marry me today"
Yes, I'm wishing my life away
These things I'll never say

It don't do me any good
It's just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What's on my mind
If it ain't coming out
We're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

{Pre-Chorus}
:Chorus:

What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I've got nothing to say

{Pre-Chorus}
Yes I'm wishing my life away
These things I'll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee"Marry me today"
Yes, I'm wishing my life away
But these things I'll never say
These things I'll never say


i cried myself to sleep yesterday night.
i cried untill i slept,which eventually i was still crying.
a breakdown,for God knows the reason.
i just wanna be happy.
but it seems,once,it get's on to my hand,it just wanna breakfree. ):

that's why i say LEAVE ME ALONE! ): 

aint she innocent? (: 

nothing beats SISTERLY LOVE <3. (: 

reading? HAPPENING! 

evertbody hurts.

everybody hurts. i agree and i know.
i just love to see myself in pain,for i dont know why?
is it worth sacrificing so much?
or am i just gonna be somebody else's fool.
-ROARRS-
*SOMEBODY JUST SAVE ME,I DONT CARE HOW THE HELL YOU DO IT. JUST SAVE ME!*
here i am once again,screaming my heart out again.
and crying the black tears again. ):
im just a kid and life is a night mare.

to ALL the people of whom it may concern-'
YEA,so what if you see me out there with someone else.
HELLO!?! its MY life,and MY business.
YOU hypocrites out there think i dont know what the hell you will tell the 'dowager empress', what the phugging hell you didnt bloody see.
so please,respect my privacy!
IT's because of you PHUGGING people who dont have a PHUGGING HEART,that my relationship with my mum is already down, ONCE AGAIN.
SO PLEASE! CAN YOU JUST PHUG YOURSELF RIGHT BACK AND PHUGGING HELL LEAVE ME ALONE.



i'll be just fine pretending im...NOT!
I'll be the girl with a broken smile.
I'll be the girl who leads her own life down the streets and boulevards of broken things.
no wait,its not and i'll be.
it's already an i am.

-baby pick me up NOW! cause i need you so bad-

how crazy a dudette would go . 

which way?

so yesterday was a pretty normal day,except for that stewpid bus that HAD to take sucha long time to come.
-ROARS-
and it's all because of that march in city hall,that kep every single person aggitated.
practically spent the whole short afternoon with sean,walking around esplanade to the movie collectables shop.
ate mrs field's cookies,
and walked to marina square to the GAME arcade where i watched sean playes most of the games,esp that INITIAL D game.
-GRRS-
i dont see a point in that game.
yesterday was pretty much a bore,esp rotting around sher's shop.
*sean if you're reading, HE AND ME DID NOT, i REPEAT DID NOT,DO ANYTHING.*


maybe its you,maybe it's me.

STOLEN.

PHUCKED UP SCHOOL.
my phone got STOLEN while i was having dance practice.
-ROARS-
GRRRRR.
BLOODY SHITAHSS
i was like having dance practice in the hall with the rythamic gym girls,malay dance,indian dance and badminton,
and so i checked to see my phone for the time and neatly placed it in my pocket of my uniform and in to my bag.
when i checked out for my phone when dance was over, it was like so no longer there.
-ROARS-

Today was my baby's beloved 15th year on earth.
so baby, HAPPY BELOVED 15 BIRTHDAY once again.
(:
had sucha great time with HIM and ONLY HIM.
he was like totoally surprised that i showed up with an ultrabig box on my hands.
i couldnt take the pictures of what i got for him as i was too busy.
but i got him what he wanted.
A MATRIX SUNGLASSES, the ones worn by that MR. andersen.
HAPPY HOUSE PIG PLUSH.
A BIG BLOOMINGTON CARD.
A BLOCK OF WOOD. (MERHER!!!!!)
A MRS FIELD HEARTSHAPED COOKIE WITH HIS NAME ON IT.
8 ROSES.
yeap all packed in one box.
oh wells. (:

HUR HE SENT ME THIS PICTURE. JUST CAUSE HE WANTED ME TO VOTE FOR HIM. (: 

MY ULTRA LORD UNTIDY TABLE 

ON THE PHONE WITH THE USUAL PERSON 

UNGLAMEROUS I KNOW. 

thanks i guess

so i probably have to give thanks that it is a tuesday and not a MONDAY. (:
yeap, but still IM SHAGGED my brain out.
it seems lessons end so slow.
and i finish school late, and teachers are piling us with HOMEWORK. ):
-ROARRS-
then again,i hurridly got my ass off outta the school with van soh,rachel YEONG,zara and michelle.
PIGGED out at holland village food court.
and they were like damn late for dance. (:
MERHER.
oh wells, i feel pretty lethargic, practically no mood to do anything.
i INTENDED to change my blogskin today,unfortunately i've got limited time. ):
-ROAARRS- (again)
oh wells, i'll prolly go rot away or something.

yeap so i havent blog for 2 days.
but nothing much happened anyway in the past two days.
just the usual school time, and BLAH, BLAH, BLAH.
but then again.

THURSDAY:
ordered the birthday cookie.

FRIDAY:
had dance.
went for my church convention with kym.
the start of my 40day fast.
oh yea,talking about fast.
i've decided to fast from gassy drinks.
chocolate for one week.
abstraining from saying any vulgarities for the whole of the 40 days.
and yeap so on and so forth.

SATURDAY:
went for my church convention again.
and im SO elated that i went.
didnt know that everyone missed me so much. ((:
merher,hey not to worry yes?
i'll be there for every cell meeting. (:

so alas,like i said and i said. nothing much happened at all.





MISSING YOU BABY <3.>
HEARTS YOU.