how do you love yet not feel like a piece of shit?

How do you love yet not feel like a piece of shit? My insanities have sure lead me to my own quagmire of doubt and uncertainty. I am exhausted off of my own emotions, I feel so much yet i can't seem to form a logical and proper sentence online, on the phone and on my mouth. So can somebody fucking pass me the torch? I've been a puppet to my own emotions. I'm sick and tired of trying to make things right yet feeling like a totoal piece of shit, in this case, i'm talking about giving up.