
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
(:
I probably shouldn't say this But at times I get
so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome, but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you
hear
My dear
The seven things I hate about you
The seven things I hate about you
Oh, you
You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry, I don't know
which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks, when you act like
them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you
do
You make me love you
It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it I'll believe
it
If you text it I'll delete
it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not comin back
You're taking seven steps
here
The seven things I hate about you
You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry, I don't know
which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks, when you act like
them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you
do
You make me love you
And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The seven that I like
The seven things I like about you
Your hair,
Your eyes,
Your old
levi's,
When we kiss, I'm hypnotized
You made me laugh, you made me cry, but I guess
that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine when we're intertwined,
everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I like the most that you
do
You make me love you
-Miley Cyrus aka Hannah Montana
Friday, October 16, 2009
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Today.
Today I ruined and broke everything I ever had.
Today I also broke down out of bare fustration and confusion.
Today I hurt myself.
Today I also bled.
Today I was
finally bruised.
Today I was finally stripped barenaked out of my soul.
Today I did not find my courage, but I will tell myself that there will
always be tomorrow.
Today finally feels
good.
-E
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
I can start to think already
"I can still remember the first day we smiled and
the first day we spoke. He was so beautiful. Almost unforgettable. I remember he
once saw the exact same perfect sunset as i did despite the distance
apart. I remind myself of it when i look at the texts exchanged and i can't
help but smile. Smile at the promises made , that
perhaps if forever didn't exist, there was still 'always'
to believe in. We shared the strangest most inner comfort of finding
peace in simplicty and to constantly look faith in the eyes. We shared our
thoughts on the beauty of a love so true and so surreal and faced our demons
head on when needed. Such committment and loyalty , together or apart,
i knew it would never break. Those days vividly entwine with the present
and i know it deep within me it will always live. He made me feel like an
honorable victim to my greatest weakness. His words and his touch still bring me
to my knees and i cannot understand my reaction no matter how hard i fight. I
pretend i am no longer affected by it and so i bury myself.I bury myself long
and hard into everything else around me so that reality wouldn't come in touch
with me. I live in my own darkness and i kind of like in there. I think he
knows. I think he knows everything about me . I think he knows that no one else
comes close . I think he knows it is because of him that i believe in forever.
But' i think' is never enough to last. So i try and forget how he used to look
at me with such grace..even till today.The anxiety accumulates when time does
not permit . Only because we choose to live seperate lives. I feel the
anticipation burst in my vessels everytime we meet again although i am not sure
if i am happy this way. I am not sure. I don't know . I think i may have lost
myself somewhere along the way. I always thought i had the right to feel larger
than life itself . I have all these beliefs and truths, but how far have they
fought for me? People may look at me with eyes of a thousand tales . Of how much
they care and believe in me. They speak to me of words filled with angels and
flowers. Words that enhances disappearing and insignificant moments . But then
they forget the important things. But he..he remembers.
You fall in love every once in a while but to fall
truly in love doesn't come easy. I did find it. But i caused for it to walk away
yet he still listens and loves me from afar despite my forceful invitation into
the darkness that i love to abide. He loves me for who i am , even from afar yet
i deemed him to be selfish. How foolish only now to finally see the kindness and
the sincerity he entrusts upon what we have. I vaugely told myself how much more
i wanted but i reckon it was because i was too blind to see. I always had the
best in front of me . I just never knew i did."
-Amanda Sue
AnnFrom [: to (: to : to X:
Sunday, October 11, 2009
another reason why i can cry
I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile; how much I love your laugh. I day dream about you off and on,
replaying our conversations; laughing at funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagined. Even though neither of us know what the future holds,
I know one thing for sure; you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to
me.
-FLB
This is for you. You know who you are.
You were always hot and then later you were cold
Thursday, October 08, 2009
three cheers

"My friend came telling me that there will be certain
people in life who just don't care about me anymore. I wonder which one are
you? Miss E."Eh pea-pole, I'm finally starting to feel stress in school. And do you know what? It's making me feel sane. (: Ok I shall shut-up now, back to readings. -jumps-
not even this close
I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close
not even a little bit
not even at all.
Katerina KAT Stratford-10 things i hate about you.
School is gay. School is making me feel gay.
Sunday, October 04, 2009
yucks i hate this feeling.
Today is the last day of my summer holidays, and in about some hours time I'll be greeted with the smell of recycled air-conditioned 'air' and stale atmosphere of learning. I think this September holidays dragged on very long, infact too long, I don't know if anyone would second that, but hey, each to everyone's own opinion. So much happened all in the month of September, and all it needed to take was just one month, ONE BLOODY MONTH, to change everyone's life forever. For that I hate taking along emotional vacation baggage with me when school starts, it eventually will remind me either to or not to fix twists anymore, because it'll show me eventually what it'll do.
You see, I had this friend, well let's call him "A". I'll save you the digust of sappy stories, but the typical jist is, boy meets girl, girl meets boy. Boy and girl becomes close friends, then boy likes girl and girl likes boy. But girl has boy-friend. Girl is confused and unsure. Girl tries to 'fix' things, girl fails. Boy is heartstricken pain. Girl tries to make him stay. (*this part times 2)
In the end, boy and girl comes to a mutual decision that they will never talk again.
That can pretty much explain my torrentional emotions throughout the summer holidays. Oh yes, how can i forget, 1st October, 2009. The last hug but that was how he left me. There was once I thought I was invincible but he knew how to break me apart like an eggshell. The rain bled like yolk and my heart, stagnant, sucked out dry of every joyful emotion.
Sad, huh? But I still kneel on my bedside and pray, just like how i pray for everyone in my life to be kept safe and sound. But I pray, that you do move on, and I also pray that you could talk to me again. I still like to talk about you in my blog, and although this is the only medium i can ever use, I make believe that you're still around somehow. But make believe can only do so little, but it's good enough.
Saturday, October 03, 2009
nothing but
Friday, October 02, 2009
I'm not going anywhere
Cause if one day you wake up, and find that you're missing me,
And your
heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe
you'll
come back here to the place that we meet,
And you'd see me waiting
to talk to
you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not really going to go anywhere. I'm not moving.Revised by E.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
what if i don't want to say goodbye?
(credits: FLB)I can honestly say
You've been on my mind
Since I woke up today, up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind
I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember 'till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
A memory I want to forget
Is goodbye
I woke up this morning
And played our song
And through my tears I sang along
I picked up the phone and than
Put it down'cause I know I'm wasting my time
And I don't mind
I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember 'till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
A memory I want to forget
Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up
With your ring tone
I hesitate but answer it anyway
You sound so alone
And I'm surprised to hear you say
You remember when we kissed
You still feel it on your lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
You remember those simple things
We talked 'till we cried
You said that your biggest regret
The one that you wish I'd forget
Is saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Oh, Goodbye
MileyCyrus-Goodbye
gay but it was playing in my head the entire morning.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
Knock us out
Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down. Just get back up, when
it knocks you down.
Keri Hilson
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
devour me
BREAK ME DOWN,
PUSH ME AWAY,
DO THINGS OUT OF SPITE,
TREAT ME AS COLD AS YOU LIKE,
SAY ALL THAT YOU WANT YOU TO SAY,
but
that won't push me any further away.
devour
I am still in the process of recovering from what has happened but I
have embraced reality and thought things would be okay. Not the same, but just
okay. However, it doesn’t seem to be going along the path of Okay. I have made
myself very clear to you and you were agreeable to it so why are you being all
weird towards me? I don’t want that. All I want from you is to me normal towards
me like every other friend you have. Is that too much? You have got me thinking
a lot about what we had, what we shared, got me thinking if everything was real.
And it’s all because of how you are towards me now. I can’t read your signs,
they are very confusing.
I am angry that I let you hurt me this way
-Donteatmycake
Friday, September 18, 2009
Oh heartbreak
Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can't watch you walk away
Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we've been through
Could I wake up without you every day?
Would I let you walk away?
No, I can't learn to live without
And I can't give up on us now
Oh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
A promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie no more.
Carrie
Underwood.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
figure us out
You say unexpected things to yourself you'll probably regret and i try to
resurrect the way that i felt the day that we met.
Chelsea Lee
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Don't go
Monday, September 14, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Friday, August 07, 2009
5:19
And one on the phoneIt's 5:19...
I'm feeling alone
And if I could talk to you
I'd want you to know
I'm holding loose
But ain't letting go
Did you really forget what we were feeling inside? Because you're leaving me to forget about us.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
where are you
Wait for the person who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary
moment seem magical, the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes
you want to be a better person ; wait for the person who will be your best
friend , the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no
matter what the circumstances, for the person who makes you smile like no one
else and when they smile you know they need you. Wait for the person who wants
to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and a tee shirt, but
appreciates it when you get dressed up for them. And most of all, wait for the
person who will put you up at the center of their universe, because that’s where
you belong.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Between 519 and 520
When you cry a piece of my heart dies
Knowing that I may have been the cause
If you were to leave
Fulfill someone else's dreams
I think I might totally be lost
You don't ask for no diamond rings no delicate string of pearls
That's why I wrote this song to sing
My beautiful girl
On a Tuesday night, you looked me in the eye and you sang this words
Monday, July 20, 2009
Burning all your bridges down

Under the night sky, I vowed like a fool. And I shit you not, but i promised to you that I'll be there for you. But just when I came back from enchanting Shang-Hai, you point your finger at me telling me I've changed and I became so cold and distant. I just ponder, but how can someone be as equally mean to me and show no sense in pity for my plight that I'm fighting a virus that was just 50% close of that of h1n1.
I just wonder why,
I just wonder why,
I just fucking wonder why,
how you turn out to be someone who is about to say goodbye?
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
oh no we're headed for heartbreak
I don't know how to decipher if it is love,
I know that it has to be a me and a you,
But both of us have different views,
Of course i'll be alright,
I guess i just had a bad night.
Monday, July 06, 2009
That's Shakespeare in love
O, she doth teach the torches to burn bright!
It seems she hangs upon the cheek of night
Like a rich jewel in an Ethiope's ear;
beauty too rich for use, for earth too dear!
So shows a snowy dove trooping with crows,
As yonder lady o'er her fellows shows.
The measure done, I'll watch her place of stand,
And, touching hers, make blessed my rude hand.
Dud, my heart love till now? forswear it, sight!
For i ne'er saw true beauty till this night.
Romeo & Juliet, William Shakespeare
Friday, June 26, 2009
I do not love you except because i love you
I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.
I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.
Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.
In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
for the first time in the longest time
Erika:Pfft
Erika:Egoistic
T: Haha
T: Nah, i'm really really very boring.
T:Like really
Erika: I pick up alot about you
T: Alot
T: Haha
Erika: Haha
A few days later, on your blog,
"I think you’ll understand
When I say that something
I wanna hold your hand"
There are so many things I want to ask you, but I never did for I'd fear to be compared to a fool. Ever since that day, you've been shooting signals and lines, and I swear I cannot decipher even one. For the first time, I cannot understand this shit, and I thought I had it. But you always prove me wrong in the end, when I am ready to go my own way, you keep coming back and you have your inawkward ability to make me feel so vulnerable and weak to my knees.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
MM
A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't love, and leaves before she is left
Marilyn Monroe
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
terribly blessed
I'm terribly blessed.
I have a family who loves me so much even though they can be dysfunctional.
I have quite a number of friends whom i can really say friends.
I have a unique boyfriend.
I have almost everything I ever needed or wanted.
What's more there to ask for?
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
i was so fucking stupid
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
It's not a feeling but it's still love

-Ate my dinner: CHECK
-Studied for Digital Media Arts UT: CHECK (Well, browsed through it and wrote ritchets of small notes on paper to be precise)
-Spoke to Stef: CHECK
-Washed my shoes that got soaked in the rain last Friday: CHECK
-Bathe: NOT CHECK
Now, lately, people have had the word 'Trouble' brewing about in their relationships, & how do I know that? I overhear convos between girl packs whispering 'If he loves you, he'll come back'. I get people running to me like I'm the new Oprah Winfrey or Dr Phil. So then I thought about sharing some of me thoughts that I'd passed down the knowledge too.
1. Trust, Talk & Tau Sar Pau
I think it's simple, really, how can anyone not built their relationship on trust? And to talk, my dear friends, we all speak English, and despite having to bring out discussions and topics with your partners might mean resentment. At least you know you checked it off your '10 things I hate about you and i hope that something would be done' list, it gets rid of excessive baggage. Lastly, tau sar pau. Enjoy your sweet love on the sweet bun. I heard the Pau Shop at Bukit Timah is simply scrumptious to the dough.
2. "If it's not you, then it's me. If' it's not me, then it's you. If it's neither of us, it's the world"
This is one of the fire starters that can lead to arguments and breakups, 'It's not you, it's me...' Well to put it bluntly, of course it's not you, it's the other party then. But out of the many people who use this line, use it as a short cut to snubbing out the last few flames of fire left thus leaving no room for anything else. But when you jump into love, you take all the good and the bad. Accept your partner's flaws and see delight in them. I think Stef's inability to organize his time is cute sometimes although it can land him on the hot clay pot of my favourite herbal clay pot beef rice, but it's so cute when i see him get frustrated.
3. "Extra! Extra! Read all about it, 11-12 year old Romeo & Juliet end up ringing each others' neck because they forgot to buy candy"
You'll be awestruked but every couple has it's day, and every couple can fight about the most stupidest, most dumbest, most frivolous stuff. I know of a couple who fought over a sleepover they had and the girl was angry at the boy because he slept on her pillow instead of his. I know of couples who fight over where to eat, and what to eat as well.
However there are couples who fight about the future, about different point of views, who fight because of the pressures put on them even if it's inexplicitly shown. But true that every fight makes the relationship stronger, and with every fight you built yourself up. So forgive and forget and take one step at a time. Despite the different fustrations and pressures set upon each individual, we're all humans, we're not God. We can't do everything and anything, we can't do much to help us for the future, when in reality check, no one knows the future. So take a day as it is. And definitely take a pressure at a time. Don't end up like pressure cookers!
Well i guess that's all i have for now, I think i should re read my notes again. Have a great night. (:
Friday, May 15, 2009
The way we used to be
Monday, May 11, 2009
Friday, May 01, 2009
Oh it is love
JUST
VERY VERY VERY
FIRST
WITH
OTHER-HALF,
BOYFRIEND,
STEFANUS TAN!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
One day school will be too cool
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
scenario 1:
Me: PEOPLE! PEOPLE PEOPLE! This is my new number onwards, i'm no longer using 9********. Please save this number from now onwards and don't be a cock and message the other number, because this message is evident that I DID give you my new number. THANK YOU! (:
-texts to 200+ people on contact list-
scenario 2:
Anna Marie: Hey carl! I texted you the other day, and you didn't reply!
Carl: Oh yea! Sorry! I changed my number, what's yours?
Anna marie: 9*******, what's yours?
Carl: Thanks!
-walks further up in school and gets the same question from Joseph, Mark, Jacob, Candice, Jasmine, Janal, Ali, Murugesh etc
Comments: Most common experiences, and this were one of the top i had.
Scenario 3:
Me: Hey i changed my number but i forgot yours, gimme yours, i'll miss call you!
Gary: 9******* got it thanks!
-does the same for 200+ contacts-
Comments: And there you would have used up probably 30-50 mins worth of free outgoing calls.
Scenario 4:
This would be the same as scenario 1 but in a mass instant messaging form.
Comments: Wow unless one likes the tedious and precautious way of not giving your number to 'strangers' and finding out who and which person you should give too. That'll be way cool.
Well after coming down of a perfect way to give out my new number to selected people, I think i might just use scenario 4 and 3. Haha so i pray for patience from everyone and not to breathe down on my neck, plus at this timing now, i still haven't taken a shower, so y'all might wanna take a step back! Rest assured, you'll get the new number soon.
Alas, I can surrender now my time to my organizer, my emails, my work, my text to the sex right here. Have a good night everyone. (:
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Chilly willies
My legs are reallly really really aching. Joy and I volunteered to help her cousin hand out some flyers at Bishan area on thursday. And hell did the odd 15 of us combed the entire Bishan vicinity. So if any of you living in Bishan and are reading this, we were the ones that handed out the patent like flyers about a condo in serangoon. But please spare a thought for us. For we had to climb 25 floors which staircases felt like 2.4 km run. What's trecherous when some hdb flats had their lifts under renovation and we had to climb up the 25 floors of staircases.
I guess you could say Joy & I had fun accomplishing a task. But a task that we both think would hunt us whenever if we ever decide to pruchase a house. It left an icy feeling in my back bone that i can never forget really. It was like way more worse than seeing a ghost, infact if i were standing next to a ghost (perhaps friendly ones) we would have been both scared of our souls. You see, the haunting part of handing out the fliers were seeing the houses that had paint splashed acrossed, or summons demanding for the money. However i can remember one house that was fully COVERED with some plastic like material with a police report stuck on it, and yes obviously with paint. Another house had a grim and unfortunate mark of having the previous dickhead owner who owned the loanshark money and the new tenants were harrased madly, till they had to install some camera. And the last house was one of the creepier ones, having to see yellow and red paint with a few notice hanging to say that the tenant has not been attending counselling sessions. And there were like shitloads of empty beer can bottles and the windown was open, so we scurried our bags away.



So after that day Joy and i learnt our lesson, if we wanted to do this again,
1) instead of like 2 people, surround yourself with like 4-5 people. It's ok to be a puss. Every human is scared of something.
2) Like device an einstein plan that can help you get all the flyers, without getting your muscles ached.
Whatever it is, i shall not want to see a flight of stairs in the following week.
Monday, April 06, 2009
Ipod filled with love songs are better than any diamonds in the world
Well, since I belived that I should repay my parents, and give them 10% of my paycheque. I brought mommy to Best Denki at J8, to the apple shop down there (Yea the mini apple store is located IN Best Denki, newly refurbished) and tell her to choose any 'i' instrument she wanted.
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Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Spider man died today
So whilst happily wolfing down the cake in my mouth, i stumbled upon this hair like object in the cake. Thinking it was just a hair, i fished it out, making a big mess on the cream. Only to discover to discover and to my horror, that this hair like object was bent to a right angle like object like the shape of an 'L'. And there infront of me was the body, well HALF of the body of a spider.
Well blogger only accepts uptil 8mb size photo, so try to figre out how you're going to view it. Well there, i guess half of the eaten spider is in my stomach. I think i'm going to look for chips now.













