to tim han

TO YOU : (the guy that always read this)

I don't know what to say,and i thought you were someone whom i can count on,someone i can really call my close friend,and all the promises you made it's all some phoney to me in the end. You're so unpredictable.
I waited for a call or an sms from you,cause i was waiting at the poolside crying.but you didn't come.
Just go alright, go on and get outta my head,i'm living on the wrong side of a parallel universe. I'm just stomping in the dark,living in a crash world.

You turn out to be exactly who i thought you were. I never pretended to be someonelse,it's been me all along,and it was even me who got hurt infront of everybody.Look,i'm not writing all of this to discriminate you or whatsoever. I just wanna say that i know how it feels to be afraid to show who you are. I was,but im not anymore,and the thing is i really don't care about what people think or do or say about me,because i belive in myself,and i know that things are gonna be ogay.So what if life will have the upright downs in life that will eventually bring me down? In the end,it's you i feel sorry for.

I know that guy who said those promises is somewhere deep down inside of you,but i can't wait for him.Cause waiting for you is like waiting for rain to fall over a drought.USELESS and DISAPPOINTING.

To accept the 'gift' from you is like accepting an unwanted and unexpected rain, all of a sudden it spoils your whole activity. I wouldn't wanna accept unless you really mean it deep down in your heart. Yeas i agreee im one of those million girls in the world,who will wish that you were her guy. Whatsoevermore or are you playing the hardball? Maybe i'll accept it that i'll never be good enough for you.